Self Destruction Is Such A Pretty Little Thing // Brusnop

Andy

I walked to our 'end of warped' party we planned with Cam. Ben, Sam and James were already there.

"Danny..do you like Ben?" Cam asked not looking over at me.

"Well yeah..we're basically brothers. Why do you ask?" I knew what he actually meant.

"You know what I mean. Don't act like you don't." He stopped and turned to me. "I've noticed how you two have been acting around each other lately." He smirked.

"Whatever Cam. I only kiss him for the fans. It means nothing." I opened the door to Black Veil Bride's bus and walked in.

"Ohhkay." He raised his eyebrows and followed me in. Andy looked smiled and shoved his way over to me.

"Danny!" He threw an arm over my shoulder. I looked over to Ben. He was sitting on the couch, next to Kellin and Vic, looking very unamused. I'd go sit with him but Cam was too suspicious. I scanned the rest of the bus and noticed Jacky Vincent and Mika Horiuchi talking to Sam. That means he's here. Ronnie Radke. We used to be good friends until I fucked up and said some pretty hurtful things about him. I was still kind of friends with Jacky though. We have some sort of british connection or something.

"You okay?" Andy must've noticed me staring over at them.

"Y-yeah."

"Good." He put his arm around my waist and leaned in towards me.

-Ben's P.O.V.-

I just don't get it. He kisses me on stage, a real kiss, and now he's all over Andy again. I understand those two have always been best friends, but since what's happened the past few days between Danny and I, it really pisses me off. When Andy wrapped his arm around him, my heart jumped and I clenched my fists. I can't stand to watch this. I turned my head around to Vic and Kellin giving me a look.

"Someone jealous?" Kellin elbowed my shoulder, smirking.

"No." I spat expressionless.

"You better watch him, Benny." Vic raised an eyebrow to them. Andy was pulling Danny off of the bus. Over all of the talking, I could hear their conversation, because they left the door open.

"Danny, you know how I feel about you. I really do love you. I want you to just be mine." They stopped talking and I could feel the tears building up in my eyes, and my throat got dry. I shot up from the couch and ran through the door. I couldn't even find words to explain how I felt. Danny was holding Andy, their lips against each other's. I took in a deep breath and tears started pouring down my cheeks.

"Ben.?" He pulled his head away from Andy, glaring at me with the most shocked expression. I could feel my body shaking on the inside.

"HAVEN'T YOU EVER HEARD OF CLOSING A GODDAMN DOOR?!?!" I shouted through tears.

"Ben.." Danny started again.

"Forget it Danny!! I knew you were a whore!!!" It sounded weird saying that, but it felt true. "I shouldn't have believed you loved me!!!!" I ran back to our bus, not having anywhere else to go. I locked myself in the bathroom and grabbed the blade out of the drawer. A million thoughts ran through my head as I held it in my hand. I promised him I wouldn't. I'd stay away from the blade if he'd stay away from the bottle. He didn't matter to me anymore. I pressed it to my skin. Deeper and deeper. My vision blurred as I watched blood drip to the floor and slide down my arm. I fell to my knees, struggling to keep my eyes open. I laid down on the floor and just waited for it to all be over. I could feel myself slipping away, when the door flew open. A bright light coming through the opening. My eyes rolled to the back of my head and it all went black.

**I know, I said this one would be longer and it kind of isn't, but, I just keep thinking it's a good place to end the chapter. And if you didn't notice it, I referenced Panic! At The Disco ("HAVEN'T YOU EVER HEARD OF CLOSING A GODDAMN DOOR?!?!") I know it's actually 'haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door', but I just thought it was appropriate to add that in there..Anyway, aren't I such a creative chapter namer?{{ridiculous amounts of sarcasm}}**