Falling Slowly (A GMW Fanfic)

3-Fear of Loosing

Maya's POV 

I walk home thinking about possibly telling Riley about what had happened to me tonight. I let a tear fall down my face as I shiver from the wind. I walk a couple more feet before I hear someone's footsteps behind me. 

"Maya!" It was Farkle. I kinda feel relieved that it's Farkle, possibly someone that I can talk to. 

I stop, and wait for him to catch up. I turn around and watch him run towards me. He catches up and stops right in front of me. We say nothing, and I let tears fall. We both sit down on the curb, not even questioning it. 

"What if nothing turns out right?" I blurt out without even re-thinking. 

"Then you take the wrong, and make it right. Nothing is forever. If you try to change it, then it might go your way; that is, if you believe in it enough." He responds. He doesn't even hesitate. 

Maybe he's right. Nothing lasts forever. Maybe I can change Riley's mind about Lucas. Maybe I can change Lucas' mind about Riley. Maybe I can find someone else for Riley. Maybe my life could work out. I softly smile, but it soon fades away. 

"Have you ever loved someone so much, but they're falling for someone else?" I ask him. All I need is to talk to someone. 

"I think that's happening right now." He responds, looking down. 

I look at him. "What do you mean?" 

"I know that you're in love with Lucas. It's actually pretty obvious, well, to me." His face falls. 

"Farkle, I'm sorry. I've been trying so hard to get rid of it. I've tried so hard." I start to cry. "But every time that I see them together, so happy, my heart breaks into a million pieces over and over. And it's not just that I'm jealous of them. It's also that I'm loosing Riley. It's like she barely even notices me anymore. She only notices me if I'm hurt.  I've tried so hard to find someone else. But maybe I was looking behind me...instead of right in front of me." I look at him, tears streaming down my face. 

And, in that moment, I realize that Farkle was always there for me, no matter what I did to him. I realized that he's actually...real. That he's there...right there. 

He looks at me; and his face is unreadable. He adjusts his beanie, so that you can barely see his hair. 

"I'm so sorry, Farkle. You were always there for me, and I have always pushed you away. I totally neglected you, when you were trying to reach out to me and help. And I never knew how much you really cared. And I never realized how much I really cared..." I look down, and let one more tear fall. 

Maybe this is the happy part of the story, where I find someone who can take care of me, and someone who I can love, without my heart breaking. 

"Maya." I hear his voice. His hand finds my chin, and lifts my head up. He looks into my eyes, and the world starts to slow down. He starts to lean in, and my heart beats out of my chest. Is this what happy feels like? He pulls me into him, and our lips lock. No, this is what happy feels like. 

He pulls away, and I rest my forehead on his. And, for the first time in years, my smile is real. 

"You're smile. It's real this time." Farkle caresses my cheek. "I love it." 

And a tear falls, but it's a happy tear. Maybe my life is going to work out. 

"I love you." I say, unexpectedly. He smiles, and I blush. "I have been waiting all my life for this moment, Maya. But I think that you just made all my dreams seem like crap. I've always pictured it at a dance, or in a park. You know, a realy cliche love story moment? But this is something that I'll always remember. This is our moment." He smiles, and kisses my forehead. "I know that you're broken. And I know that a heart is hard to fix. But I'm hoping that I can be the bandage that holds you together until you're healed. And even then, I want to protect you from anything that could possibly break you down. May I?" He asks me, causing me to smile. I nod, and jump into his arms.