Falling Slowly (A GMW Fanfic)

5-Fear of Telling

Maya's POV

Riley and I head to her room, waving back to the guys, who stay where they are. We climb in her window, and sit. 

"So, you and Farkle?" she says, raising her eyebrows. I just roll my eyes. 

"I've heard Farkle's version of the story, so now I get to hear your's. it's probably better." I laugh. 

"Okay, so I was walking home, and I heard his voice calling my name. I waited for him, and then we sat on the curb. I cried...a lot. And I asked him if he's ever loved someone so much, but they're with someone else, and he said that, that's happening right now to him. And when I questioned him, he said that he knew that I was in love with Lucas, and I said that I've been trying so hard to find someone else, then next thing you know, we kissed and stayed on that curb for another half hour." I was smiling wider than I have ever before. "I'll give you more details later." 

Her eyes were wide, and she grew really pale. "What?" Did I look weird? Did I say something wrong? Was it something that I said? 

"Who did you say that you're in love with?" She looks into my eyes, with that 'you-better-tell-the-truth-or-else-you're-gonna-get-it' look. Oh. That's what caught her. Maybe I said too much. A lot too much. 

I look down at my lap. I fidget with my fingers, and I clear my throat. "Lucas..." I say softly. 

"Maya. Why didn't you tell me earlier?" I could've set you up with someone." She looks disappointed. 

"So, you're not mad?" I ask, fearful. 

"Of course not! I just wish you would've told me earlier. I would've helped." She hugs me, and strokes my hair. 

"I'm so sorry I-I just was scared that you were going to be mad. I was afraid of telling you. Just please don't tell Lucas. I'm starting to get over him, and Farkle is okay with me still loving him. I'm gonna get over him soon. I have Farkle now, and there's nothing more that I could ever ask for." I hesitate a little.

"I promise that I won't tell him. Or anyone. I just have one more question." she says.

"And what would that be?" I ask. 

"Is that why you stormed out today?" she says, quickly. 

"...Yes...Sometimes it's hard seeing someone that you truly care about with someone else. And sometimes I just can't handle it. So I just leave. I'm really sorry for that. And thank you for being there when I needed it the most." I spit it all out. 

She hugs me once again, and we just stay there. 

"You have Farkle. And you love him, don't you?" she asks. 

"I never realized that I did until today." I shrug. She smiles. And I smile for real. It feels amazing. 

"So, now that we've gotten our traditional sleepover 'deep conversation'- lets grab some blankets and pillows so that we can camp out outside!" And that's why I love Riley. She brings out the 10 year old in me. I smile and gather as many blankets and pillows as I can hold; and so does Riley. 

We squeeze through the window, and toss everything towards the guys. But they don't notice. They look like they're really deep in conversation. I dramatically clear my throat, to get their attention. They both look at us and jump. Riley and I giggle. 

"What's all this stuff?" Farkle asks. 

"We are camping outside!" Riley exclaims, throwing her hands in the air. Lucas smiles at her. And I don't smile at him. I'm slowly getting over him. 

We lay down as many blankets as we can and leave some for ourselves. We surround everything with pillows, and sit down. After a while, Lucas and Farkle go to get snacks. 

"Did you see their faces when we came out of the window? They looked like they were talking about something really deep or serious." Riley says. 

I nod in agreement. "We should ask them about it when they come back." I say.

"Hey, Maya?" Riley says.

"Hmm?" I hum in response. 

"How long have you loved...you know...?" she asks.

"Um...probably since you two started flirting back and forth. I started to get a little jealous, yet I told myself that I was jealous of Lucas, because he spent more time with you. But over time, I figured it out."

"Look, Maya. I'm really sorry that this happened to you. If I had known, I would've held back." she sounds really guilty. 

"Riles, don't feel guilty. You can't control this. It's not your fault. And I have Farkle now, I'm happy." I smile widely. And she smiles back. 

Then the guys come back with popcorn, candy, and soda. We all dig in and talk for a while before I remember what Riley and I were going to ask them. 

"Oh- guys! What were you guys talking about when we came back out?" I ask with a mouth full of licorice. Both the guys' eyes widen and they look at each other. 

"Oh, uh, nothing much." Farkle rubs the back of his neck. 

"Then why did you hesitate and widen your eyes?" Riley shoots back. 

"What are you talking about?" Farkle answers nervously. We just roll our eyes and look at each other, with our arms crossed. 

"Seriously guys. What were you talking about?" Riley demands. 

"Okay, fine! I wanted to know what was bugging Maya, but Farkle wouldn't tell me. He told me to ask you myself. So, Maya, may I know why you were sad?" Lucas says quickly. 

Farkle and Riley both look at each other with a 'oh-crap-what-now' look. I hesitate, and look down. 

"I'd rather not talk about it, okay?" I see Lucas nod. "Okay. Sorry, Maya." he says. Then it's silent for a minute or two before Farkle starts a whole conversation on whether staying up or sleeping is better.

All through the night, I can't stop thinking about that there's a possibility that Lucas will find out. And that scares me. I'm scared of telling him. 

Riley's POV

We talk for what feels like forever, before we all lay down. I lay my head on Lucas' chest, and he wraps his arms around me. I grab one of his hands, and intertwine our fingers. He strokes my hand with his thumb. Our legs are all twisted together, but we don't care. I can feel him kiss my head a couple times. 

I look up at him, and he looks down on me. He then slides forward so we are eye level. We stare at each others' eyes for awhile before he kisses my forehead, then my nose, then my cheeks, then he holds my chin and pulls me in towards him. We kiss for a little while longer until he pulls away and rests his forehead on mine. I smile and look at him. And he looks back at me. I wish that this moment would last forever. 

He lets the back of his hand run down the side of my face, and I take my hand and grab his. We interlock our fingers and he kisses the back of my hand. I smile and blush. 

"You are absolutely beautiful, Riley. I love you so much." he says, pulling my waist closer to him. 

"I love you, more." I say and wrap my arms around his neck and pull myself closer towards him. I love being in his arms because I feel protected. I feel safe from anything. 

"I honestly doubt it." He says, pecking my lips again. I giggle a little. 

I start to dose off when I feel Lucas pull me closer to him, putting my head on his chest, and wrapping his arms around me. I smile and snuggle a little closer also. He starts to rub my back, and with that, I'm asleep. 

A/N

Ooohhh Rucas is getting intense bro better watch out!!!

XOXO <3