Maybe I'm better off dead.
If I was, would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead,
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word,
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong,
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
-sleeping with sirensMisha pov
It has been a week and Jared doesn't remember anything. He's living at his home, he can't act, so we had to pause Supernatural. Jared is having a hard time, seeing us upset because he can't remember.
Jared pov
I'm worthless. I'm hurting my friends because I can't remember them. I should've looked at the road! I began crying softly and the sweet woman who is my wife came over and hugged me.
"What's wrong Jared?"
"I- I'm s- so -so wor- wortless! M-maybe I'm b-better off- off de- dead." I stuttered. It was so hard to talk while crying, y'know?
"No, You're not better off dead. I would commit suicide just to be with you, what about the kids? Jensen and Misha? The cast? The fans? If you die, a piece of everyone would die. You're loved, everybody just wants you to remember." Genevieve responded, at the end she was crying too.
"I'm not loved." I said, looking at my phone.
"What do you mean?" She looked at my phone as well.
"I'm getting hate from some guy." I showed her my phone. It showed à few messages I got on twitter.
Hey fag. Maybe it's better to kill yourself. Nobody would miss you, you don't even remember them!
And,
Still not dead? Stop trying, you're only hurting the other people.
Or,
Nobody loves you. Never have, never will. Kill yourself.
And a few more.
"Oh Jare! That's one person. Look at this," she showed me other messages.
Get better soon Jared, we all love you!
And,
Oh Jared, I heard what happend. Get well soon and remember, WE LOVE YOU!
And lot's more. More love than hate.
A smile formed on my face.
I can remember what someone once told me.
We all get hate, but as long as we get love, we don't have to worry.
I am getting love. More love than hate. I don't have to worry anymore. For now. I just hope I'll remember my past soon.Did you like it? One question, would you guys like a Homeless Destiel au? I can either,
A) continue this + Start Destiel story
B) after I finish this write the Destiel story
C) stop this and start the destiel story
D) no destiel story.Remember,
You
ARE
loved!