Vogue ➳ Normani Kordei

seven

I was sitting in Ms. Kordei's room in the middle of the day. She wanted me to proof read some papers that she needed to put into the magazine.

I leaned back in the leather chair and crossed my legs as my eyes scanned each word on the paper.

"So," Ms. Kordei spoke up, "That was your girlfriend at the park."

"I guess." I answered back shortly, not really taking my focus off of the paper in front of me.

"How can you guess?" Kordei taunted me, "She basically yelled it at me. I mean, damn. I've never seen someone so jealous."

"Lauren is..." I tried to think of the perfect word but it wouldn't come to me.

"Forceful when she wants something? Overprotective? She doesn't want you but then again she wants you... or else she doesn't want anyone else to have you." Kordei smirked, getting up out of her seat to strut to the front of her desk and lean back to take her glasses off and hold them by the frame.

"H-how did you-" She got Lauren to a 'T'.

"Because I know Lauren." Kordei smiled, "Not personally of course. I've been with a 'Lauren' many times. And I could tell you the reason why she's so easy to read or why she's even acting like this."

"Go ahead."

"She's cheating on you." Kordei shrugged, biting down on the frame of her glasses.

"Please stop." I begged. I didn't want to go further into this.

"You've already known, huh?" I tried to get up but she pulled me by my hand to keep me close to her. "You just don't want to admit it."

"Because it's not true."

"What did you find?" Kordei prayed deeper with a fiendish voice, staring me in my eyes. "Another girls panties? No, you've seen her phone and the cute messages she sends out. Wait, here's the best one. You've walked in on it."

"No, I haven't." I responded trying to be mad but I couldn't. I was heart broken because I have seen texts. I have noticed something different about her.

Kordei nudged my chin up to look into my eyes, "You know if you just admit it, you can make it easier on all of us."

"What do you mean?"

"Just say it so we can fuck without you being so tense all the time." She pulled away and went to her seat.

"Oh please. Is there really nothing better that you can do than fuck me senseless in that room." I was growing impatient with her constant flirts and no progression.

"You haven't even been fucked senseless yet. Just wait until I start getting kinky." Her voice dropped to a sexual tone.

"What the hell is your problem? Can't you just go to a club and fuck whoever you want there."

Kordei pursed her lips, "Why are you getting so angry? Shouldnt you be happy you're fucking me."

"That's not the point." I responded, "I'm tired of being a fuck toy. Like you said before, Lauren's been fucking me enough."

I picked up my bag and sat her papers on her desk before storming out the door.

"Where are you going?" Kordei yelled out.

"I need an early lunch break. Hopefully you'll have the common decency to let this one slide." I frowned, running out of the room to get into the elevator and go home.

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Fifteen minutes later, I arrive home with tears in my eyes.

I walked in the house and yelled out, "Lauren! Are you home?"

That's weird. She should be here. She has the graveyard shift tonight.

I walked into the bedroom and crawled into bed without stripping off my clothes. I curled up within the sheets and began bawling. Probably ruining my make up on the fabric below.

Soon enough I began to get drowsy. I just let the sleep take over me as my emotions enveloped my mind.

Thirty minutes later, I heard a loud bang in the kitchen but I didn't bother to get up and check it out. It was probably Lauren and I didn't want her to know I was home just yet.

I tucked my head under the covers as a way to block out the world around me to show I didn't want to be disturbed.

I heard soft giggles in the hallway and was stunned. I didn't like the sound of what was about to happen but I refused to move.

The bedroom door opened and I began to tear up hearing two people kiss in the door way as their feet padded over closer to the bed.

It wasn't until someone was thrown back on me that I sat up to see the two culprits.

With my eyes brimmed with tears, I pulled the covers off of my head to see a shocked Lauren and Camila.

"What the fuck." I said with a broken voice.

"Baby, it's not what it looks like-" Lauren responded with the biggest cliche in the world.

I scoffed with and rolled my eyes to wipe the water line, "Fuck off Lauren."

I got up off of the bed and started heading towards the door, but Lauren grabbed my arm. "Please let me explain."

I yanked my arm away, "I'll be back to get my stuff later."

I didn't even want to live in that house anymore. I was upset. Why did Ms. Kordei have to be right? I grabbed my phone and keys from the entrance and walked out of the apartment.

I didn't want to know if this day could get any worse because I'm sure it could.

I strolled down to Times Square for the hell of it. Thousands of people pass through every day but you know why I love it? No one notices you in New York. Who cares? Why should they pay attention to some random person they'll never see again.

I tried to keep myself composed but my mind just kept putting the pieces together.

Camila and Lauren, really? How did I not see it? How could I be so blind? They've been around each other so much lately.

I thought Camila was my friend. What a terrible fucking friend.

I had no room to talk. Maybe this was karma coming back at me for fucking with Ms. Kordei.

Ms. Kordei. Normani.

Her.

I just can't shake the feeling of her. I can't stop thinking about her even though there's nothing to think about.

She's refused to move further into a relationship. I can't do anything about it.

But for some strange reason, I want her. She's a challenge. Something I never really had. She wants me but she doesn't. There's something holding her back and I want to get in between that. I'm not much for fucking up people's lives but I feel like in some strange way, she wants me to change her life.

My phone buzzed in my pocket. I was fearful of who was texting me but decided to look anyways.

Kordei: at least come back and finish proofreading. that's all I'm asking for today.

Y/N: fine. I'll be there in a bit