an attempt at poetry

chapter 46: 'I'm sorry (a love letter to self)'

I'm sorry you feel this way,

I'm sorry you can't address this pain,

I'm sorry you were told those things,

I'm sorry you're still not strong enough to take them with a smile,

I'm sorry you feel the need to put your pain in a balance,

and compare it with those in the street, at the hospital and in need,

I'm sorry you think you're not in enough pain,

to be paid attention and given the hug for which you yearn,

I'm sorry you feel stuck,

I'm sorry you don't see the exit,

I'm sorry it had to be you,

And not your neighbor, the rapist,

I'm sorry I'm not there,

To drink your whines and your cries,

To bite away the pain,

that rids you of sleep at night,

I'm sorry your mind doesn't feel yours at times,

I'm sorry you have urges to rip it right out,

I'm sorry you wish for a different life sometimes,

But most of all I'm sorry that this pain feels all consuming,

That it's taking over your days,

Your hours and your nights,

When the world has so much to give,

So much happiness for you to receive,

But it feels like the end for you,

So you must remember to remember,

That this may be the closing of a chapter,

But never of your life.

A/N: May be my new favourite <3