Hate letters to the one I love

cries

in my mind i want to yell at you. in my mind i want to hurt you. i want to push you. i want to kick you. i want to strangle you. i want you to see how i feel. 

but it comes out as cries. i cry instead. i don't know why. it just happens. 

you want me to do something but i usually want to cry. i want to be left alone. i want to drown in my tears. i want to cry alone. i want to be alone.

this is why i don't like people. they remind me of sadness. they make me want to cry. when i alone ill just watch netflix and get my mind off everything. but no. they want to bother me. i actually feel hatred towards people now. people are overrated.