Hate letters to the one I love

fuck

that amazing boy and i are no longer together. hes no longer amazing. heres how it went down. basically the friday before the break started we had an alright day, until 4th. i think i annoyed him because i went to grab his hand and he completely just pulled away. so last bell rang and we walked and he told me he think he just wants to be friends. i started crying and said ok. so i cried and cried and then i got over it quickly, but as i was getting ready for a party he messaged me and told me to call him apologizing and all that crap. i told him that im going somewhere so he said to call when i got home and i did. we talked it out and got back together. after that we routinely talked on the phone and it was going good. until the holidays came, he was always at parties and we havent talked on the phone in weeks so when we finally did it didnt go so well. he seemed bored and like he wasnt interested in me anymore. i asked him is he wanted to break it off and he kept saying idk as if he wanted to but couldnt tell me. so i broke it off. i cried for a while. i would get that feeling that i hated soo much some nights. but i got over it quickly. i went to school and i was on fire. i was having fun but them out of no where he kiked me. telling me how he felt and that he wanted to get back together. i didnt want to. but we talked at school and he even cried to me. so one day it 4th period and darian keppt doing that thing where he squeezed my leg and it hurt so i would scream and tell him to stop and i guess it pissed off cristian so he made a noise i forgot what and only me and frank turned to him and he flicked off darian, his face was red and he looked super pissed. so i kiked him and asked him whats up and he told me that he doesnt want to talk to me anymore. so we stopped talking, up to this day we havent talked. and i want to but im super pissed at him because he said i was a waste of three months and that i shouldve appreciated him nd saying that i could be his side hoe??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? dudeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee that pissed me off to the max. so whatever . pissed me off.