How could I loose it all.....

Chapter13: out with new information

With a sigh of relief I loose my footing and topple to the prickling grass at the top of the tall hill. Beatrice is right behind me and doubles over breathing heavily from exhaustion. I pat the small clover bushel beside me and she gladly plops onto the little growing plants without a word.
For a little while we pant with enthusiasm until, finally I pipe up.
"How much further do you think?"
"If we aren't total morons we should get there tomorrow. That is to say if we followed the map right." She replies, pulling out a large map. I hear her mutter under her breath, "What happened to G.P.S's?..."
Laughing lightly I join in the planning for our route for tomorrow.
Slowly the sun begins to rise and we scavenge for a place to sleep as well as stay hidden. There was a small, plant infested dip in the side of the hill. It isn't large or rock like, but I guess it can be considered a cave. With a yelp Beatrice comes up behind me and we slip into the small area.
Lying there I feel the exhaustion stabbing me, and yet I'm unable to go to sleep. My thoughts of Kari slam me again. Remembering the newspaper we grabbed earlier that night. I can still see her sitting in her wheel chair missing her legs and a scar running down her face. The headline saying,
"Karia Saki! Lone surviver's story!"
Pulling the sheet Out of my backpack I stare at the radiant face. For what feels like the one thousand's time I read it.
Karia Saki the adopted daughter of the previous business owner Oroku Saki, the lone surviver from the tremendous explosion in the middle of NewYork 2yrs ago tells us a first person story of the horrific experience.
"I was one of the few people still in the building when it happened," She said with sadness swimming in her eyes, "we were working on a machine that could teleport you anywhere, when it went terribly wrong. My dear friend and his three younger brothers, also a few of my bosses and subordinates were there with me."
I grimace again, she called me her "dear" friend...
"We were all in the same room preparing to turn on the machine one last time before heading home. One of the brothers walked over and pulled it down and we realized it had gone sour! The poor boy was pulled in first, then slowly the walls began to faultier at the pressure being pressed on it until the support beams gave way and the building collapsed. Many of the people around me were crushed or other wise had already been sucked into the portal. I was saved from being sucked in by a boulder that crushed my legs. It gets foggy after that point, but I do remember that pain slashed across my face and that the eldest brother had turned off the machine in a way that made it explode after a few minutes of over loading. I never saw my friend again... Still, I'm vary grateful that my husband to be had not stayed at work with me like he had offer..."
I fold it up again and put it away, so! I'm dead then... My heart felt torn, in the two years I was in prisoned, Karia had gotten married and was in emergency care for her legs. Married... I loved her for years and she admitted to me she had a bit of feelings for me only a year before that incident. Now I read about her after all this time and it hurts me. My life in NewYork really is over. Only a select few know I'm alive and my Father must have lost hope in me after a few months of my missing.
Bea rolls over and stares at me intently. I give a cringe like smile and know that it isn't enough. With a swift move of her hand the paper is torn out of my hands.
"Let go Leo, please." She hummed lightly and my hand loosened on the remaining piece of the newspaper that was held tightly in my grasp.
Letting the paper slip out of my hand I lye there and after a while let the nightmares take me.

Opening my eyes I look around and see the a small dark room. There is a chair in the middle of it and I'm moving toward it shaking. When I stop in front of  the bench I see a small gray figure sitting in a heavy position as if all meaning in its life has been lost.
My heart gives a leap and I try to call out his name, but am unable to. Quickly my body tries to wrap it's arms around him and weep, but again to no avail. All I can do is stand with a blank face and look and the old rat. His eyes are dark and dead, his shaggy fur looks older, and all he seams to be doing is breathing in and out with slight wisps of air.
Dad...
The room turns red like blood and a horrible shooting pain spurs out of my shoulder. I let out a silent cry in my head from the shock. Slowly three scarlet figures appear behind the sniffing rodent, three boys that I've know my whole life. A liquid begins flowing down my face and my body starts heating up until I burn. Unmoving, their stares penetrate me as if they're looking strait through me and at some thing sad and broken. I fight with all my will, I fight the stiffness in my self and try to move! Nothing is worth while with out those four in my life! Nothing! Slowly I move, and then jog, and then run to the dark figures before me. The closer I get the lighter I feel, as if the world is closing around me. I reach out a hand and let out a cry that I can't seem to hear. I feel myself leaving, being dragged away from the people I love and back to my lost reality of heart break and the iciness of the lies of life.
"LEONARDO!" Her voice rings out, and it comes back to me. I stop dead, torn by two realities and fall to the floor. The blossoming tears roared down my face harder. If I go with them I'll have my old life, my family. But I'll leave her alone and just as broken as I am now... How could a guy like me place this burden on another knowingly?! I look up at the three shadowed figures and my father pleading for an answer! After all these years couldn't another for once take on the burden of answering the impossible questions? But as I look at them I don't see the turtles I knew and I know in my heart I'm no longer who I was either. That is my past, and it's impossible to go back and be the same. I have a future, even if it isn't what I really wanted the rest of my life to be like.
A hand gently grabs mine and I stand without that previous pressure. Her hand is warm in the cold of the world and I know I'll be okay. This brokenness and pain will never leave me, but I have the ability to live with it. We begin walking back, leaving all four behind. Against my will I look back at my father. I avoid any looks from the other three and look at him alone. He's looking up at me in those died eyes and I'm afraid. I don't know that straggly thing looking up at me with pleading and vengeful eyes. He has fallen to the depression and the irrational want, and I can't bring my self to look at him. I move my eyes up to look ahead of me and see three shelled figures running for me at a tremendous speed, as if running for their... lives... I turn and walk with Beatrice grasping her hand crushingly tight.
I hear their panting and my heart begins speeding up with worry. My nails dig into her hands and they begin bleeding. Surprised I try letting go, but she stares at me with determination. We keep walking until I'm so exhilarated and frightened I begin running as fast as I can pulling her behind me. I trip and fall to the floor on my shoulder, I let out a pained cry and hold it. It burns hotter and hotter as the three get closer. Scrambling back with my legs I look up to see a small burnt orange furred arm spread out like a shield in from of me. Beatrice's arms are spread over me and she's standing strong above me.
"You can't, if you love him you'll have to find another way." She says in a sad voice and turns to towards me, "Now then Leo, please. WAKE. UP!!--"

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Hey my (names)!!
After two months of waiting I give you this junk! XD
Haha, I've been so busy and now marching band is starting up again which makes my free from 5pm to 9pm. I'll try to be more responsible though. I hope 1500 words will fix this up a bit and that you guys enjoyed it.
Thanks so vary much for 700 reads! I seriously didn't earn it, but I'll take it and love it none the less.
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Thank you again my peoples and have a blessed week!