Nyla

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| Nyla |

As I sit here and look back on times that I've had,
My heart starts to reminisce on good times and bad.
It seems a day or two ago I was just a little girl
Now I'm a woman about to take on the whole world.
As I sit here and take a glimpse at the past
I feel my first chapter coming to a close.
For tomorrow I won't be just me anymore,
But I'll be that woman I've always known.

"Nyla, it's time"

I turned around and saw my dad.

I smiled as I walked to him and wrapped my arms around his.

He kissed my forehead one last time before the door opened and the song began to play.

For I'm just a girl about to be a wife.
Living out God's glorius plan for my life.
Oh, As I walk down the aisle my hearts starts to run
For I am ready and my life hasnt even begun.

I watched around the hall as I saw people that I both knew and didn't. My tummy started to turn as my vision got blurry.

I started having flashbacks of everything. From when I was little girl, when dad wasn't around to when he surprised me at my party.

Everything was just so bright.

Then came Jonah.

When I had a crush on Malik but then he liked Emily. Then Jonah give me a ride home.

That was when I fell in love.

My first love.

Basically, my first everything.

I never thought I would love someone like you
Never in my dreams that I would meet you
But then, as I travel in my life's journey
You walk into my life and I fall for you.

I never know how is it to be in love
Until that very special moment
You brought wonderful things in my life
You opened my eyes to see the beauty of love.

You are my first kiss
You are the first guy who hugged me tenderly
You are the first man who held my hand lovingly
You are my first love.

You are the one who taught me how to love sincerely
You showed me the way to your heart
You've taught me everything that I should know about love
I told myself, the story of my life is all about you.

You cared for me, and I really appreciate it
You showed me how to love unselfishly
But you never teach me the art of letting go
You never teach me the cure of hurting so much.

I thought my first love will be my last
I thought its you that I belong to
But now, what I once thought remains as thoughts
For you are now waving goodbye.

All your smiles are for me
But now, its for somebody else's
Your stare so full of love
Its for someone's comfort.

The hug and kiss that I once have
Your heart once all mine
Now, they all belong to somebody
It hurts to know you are already gone.

Deep in me, I made a promise
I will never fall in love again
Unless its you, my first love,
My one and only...

"Nyla"

"Huh" I finally came back to reality as I stared at Derek and the priest.

"Would you take Derek Jacobs to be your lawfully wedded husband?"

That question was on repeat in my head.

Was I ready this?

Do I really love Derek enough to spend the rest of my life with him?

I looked around the hall as everyone stared at me and there he was.

Standing by the door with Nathan right next to him.

He gave me a small smile as I returned one.

"I- I can't" I said as I stared at Derek.

"Sorry Derek but I'm just not the one for you. I'm sorry I brought you thus far to bring this disappointment to you. One day you'll find the right one. The one who'll be willing to spend the rest of their life with you. You'll forever hold a part in my heart. Thank you for everything. I'm very thankful" I raised the veil as I kissed his cheek.

I walked down the aisle and stood beside them.

He stared at me as he took off my veil and loosed out my hair.

With a genuine smile, he said "Let's go"

He held my hand and we walked out of the hall and got into his car.

My dear love, I wanted to share
My thoughts, my feelings and
What makes me despair
I want to share with you
What makes me happy; what makes me feel blue..
So you can sense that my love is honest and true.

Every day not a single minute
Passes by without you in it
Your skin, your voice, your body and your touch
All of these moments, I miss them so much.

You are so present, so deep in my heart
And our souls, I just know, will never part,
But circumstance and distance can be so overwhelming
They close doors and create doubt and we start blaming..

There are actions of mine and I know that for sure..
That feel so wrong, though my intentions are pure
They are painful and impossible to bear
And you feel it's all so unfair.

You can't run from yourself;
There is no place to hide
It just hurts you so deep
It hurts your heart and your pride.

Then I worry that if I continue to stay
Will it be wrong and will I be in your way?
I fear that I am not at all what you need
And that this truth will make my heart break and bleed.

Then I sit here and wipe away my tears
Wishing you could kiss away my fears
If only you knew how much,
I miss and need your embrace and your touch

I know I can't hide from my thoughts and my fear
And I know at these times I don't seem near
But you break down these walls
With the strength of your love
And then I feel blessed
From God above!

My love for you runs so deep through my vein
That I dream of you, in spite of the pain.

Jonah + Nyla = Forever & Always
♡ ♡

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So this is the end.

Soon I'll post my new book entitled ' Blind Date '

Just wait on it!

S/O to all my readers who have been patient and my voters. Y'all the real MVP

xoxo,

~Indi