Love since grade one

Chapie 4

•high school•

Yeah so heres the recap of my life after 4rth grade in better detail. all was great in my grade school. It was the best. until the middle of grade four. my bros were bullied and the principles did nothing...... so my parents decided we'd move and change schools. that's when it all crashed. I went to this one school I hated it, I wanted to be with my old friends. I never knew how unliked this girl was (Carly) she took this chance as having a new friend, not being a loner. she took away my ability to make friends. because she hung out with me, the rest of the class thought I was weird. grade 4,5 and 6 I only had her as a friend. grade 7 she ditched me and I had nobody, I just wanted the ground to swallow me up. I felt depressed, ugly, lonely, uncool and most of all useless. grade 8, I made a few grade 7 friends and got even more hate from my class because of it. our school field trip, we went to Quebec (12 hour ride) I sat on the bus alone (not that I mind I always sleep in car rides anyways) but we stayed in Quebec for one whole week. I spent the week talking to my teacher and sitting alone. I wanted to just find a spot, hide and hope they'd leave me behind. now my high school experience is ruined because that turned me anti social and I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I feel as if I have to date losers and the cute guys won't like me at all. I feel like a loser.

But now, I just had to live. This is a retry, I will make many friends today. Which in fact I actually have including being reunited with Anna and kat ! But I have made other friends, my locker buddy is amazing ! She so much different from the others, really stands out. I admire that in friends.

I was walking down the hallway talking to kat when I accidentally bumped into someone.

"Sorry !" I shouted as I kneeled down and picked up my books.

"No, it's my fault sorry." Said a male voice. He picked up my forgot book on the ground and gave it to me.

"Thank you." I said as I looked at his face. My breath caught in my throat, it was spencer. I ducked my head and ran over to kat walking to geography class.

"That was so embarrassing !" I whispered. Kat smiled at me and nudged my side while I glared at her.

We took our seers near the back of geography class. We obviously sat next to each other taking about spencer.

"What does it matter kat, he's never going to like me. He's hot, I'm not. That's like social suicide." I stated.

"NICKY ! You are frickin gorgeous, how can you not see that?" She questioned.

"I can't see that because it's not true!" I said. She glared at me.

Class started and I instantly began to copy notes. I was dedicated to actually do good in my classes, unlike in grade school. I actually got C's in geography and math in grade school, I never knew that this year I'd score A's in those classes. It makes a difference when you listen in class.

My day went by as geography, gym, French and math class. Right now I was on my way to math and I sat at the front by the door. I instantly began texting my friends on my awesome iPhone. A small note book was placed in front of me. I looked up to see spencer smiling at me.

"I accidentally grabbed this thinking it was my book. You're a good drawer by the way". He said as he sat down two desks away. My eyes widened, he looked at my drawings? I had drawings of fat unicorns, food and a ton of random stuff in there. That's so embarrassing.

The bell rang and the teacher started talking while I immediately listened. Yeah, so what if I was becoming a nerd...... I wanna get far in life Kay. Either become a massage therapist or an interior designer, people say I give amazing massages but I also am in LOVE with art and decor! Sounds girly but I'm a creative person.

The teacher gave us a 30 minute explanation on the subject by power point with examples and let us do work on pages she gave us for the rest of the period. It wasn't hard, I finished around 15 minutes leaving me time to text kat back.

-me: omg Kat guess who's in my math class.. <(.-.)>

-Kat: your crushie !! <(.~.)>

-me: ....yes.... •-•

-Kat: ouhhhhhh! Gurrrrrl you bettah make a move. c;

-me: hahahahahahhaha. No. .-.

-Kay: why not :"c

-you know what happened last time ._.

-Kat: grrrrr.

-me: :)

The bell rang and I got up and rushed out of the room before anyone would talk to me... Although it's not like anyone would want to..

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