I shouldn't love you

Rock7

Im working on my loptop when the phone downs stair rang.

"Hon can you pick up the phone" lina told me, she's in the bathroom, i put down my loptop and go down stair.

"Hello?"

"hello? Is this clarence smith?" i freeze for a while when I heard her voice

"bea?" i ask carefully

"oh so it's you, by the way, clifford told me to call you coz he want you to see the miniature of the house design, are you free tomorrow lunch? "

"yeah" as I said
"okay bye" then she hang up the phone.

I go up stairs to finish my work, when I saw lina holding my loptop. "hon?" I said the she turn to me, I saw her face crying, I suppose to touch her when she slap me.

"I know from the very start that you don't love me, I know until now you still want her back! But clarence! For god sake! I'm your girlfriend, and we're actually living together for almost 3yrs! Will just give me some respect!"

I look at her "i don't understand"

"you just don't want to understand, im always there for you, whenever you need someone, i sacrifice everything, my life, my friendship with bea, my dignity. But you always just put me aside, why are you doing this to me"

"i love her before and I think until now?"

"and how about me?"

"lina i care about you"

"and that's all?"

I look down and she walk away

I look for lina, And I saw her in our garden.  I sat down beside her. "I'm sorry, for not being unfair"

"it's okay, I already accept it, from the very start"

"I try to love you, belive me, and I did." she just looked at me, and smile.

"why can't I believe in your words?" I just look down, and hold her hands.

"It's okay, I understand... And I want to be honesy with you."
She just look at me in the eyes.

"I'm working with bea..."

"What!!!!"

"I didn't know that she's the architect slash (/) fiancé of mr. Brix" she just look at me

"So what's your plan? Are you going to do it? Or not"

"I'll do it"

"why? Are you really hurting me?"

"lina look, I need this project."

"for what clarence? There's so many client wanted to have you"

"because the price is big"

"duh! You don't need money!"

"I need for our wedding "
She look at me straight in the eyes...
"Clarence"

I just smiled at her and hold her hand. "I think we have to be settled down now " she just looking at me. " I mean, we're actually living together for long years, I think we hav--"

"clarence  are you doing this thing, because bea is getting  married too?" i look at her in the eyes.

" I'm sorry lina, but that's not what I mean" lina hold my face.

"think first hon, think" then she walk away