Lost boys

Bad Joke

When Dean heard his brother say that he hates him and heard the words Castiel said his whole world fell apart. Those people who mattered to him now hated him. The group in front of him left him standing there all alone. "Deano." He heard Abaddon's voice from behind. For sure she couldn't just let him alone once. Dean turned around and faced her. "You know, the deal for you to be my boyfriend is still going." She grinned. Well what else should Dean do? He had nobody. The only person that actually really seemed to want him was Abaddon. "Fine." Dean replied. "Oh come on- wait you said yes?" Abaddon asked confused. "Yes I did." Dean looked straight at Abaddon. She didn't expect him to say yes at all. "Well, great." She then grinned. Together they went out to the campus. It just seemed like their gang has reunited. And Dean didn't feel that lonely anymore. Even if it was more likely a exploitative friendship than a actual real and good friendship. But for now it didn't matter to Dean. As long as he wasn't alone.

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"I'm so sorry for what Dean did. I'm so sorry." Sam whined. "It's fine Sam. It was my mistake." Gabriel smiled a little holding a tissue against his nose, which was bleeding. "Sam, I don't want you to be around Dean. For your safety." Castiel said and his voice was all honest. "But where should I go? I've got nowhere to go." Sam asked Cas. "You can come to us. Sure it will be his first thought but I got ways to lie to him and make him believe me." Castiel told and patted his shoulder. Sam only nodded. "Next bigger break we meet in front of the campus to go to your house and pick some of your stuff up." Castiel ordered. It was so unreal that they were back. It all felt like a dream. When they sat down on a lunch table everyone took out some food. Except Sam. "Do you want to tell me now?" Gabriel asked as a hint of what they were talking about earlier in class. Sam looked at the people sitting with them and looked down. "I don't know." He whispered. "Is it about Dean?" Castiel suddenly asked. Sam didn't think he heard what Sam said. Sam just kept quiet. "Excuse us." Castiel said and stood up walking over to Gabe and Sam and pulling them after him. They sat down on another table that was sort of far away from the others. "Talk." Castiel then said. Sam faced his hands nervously playing with them. "Take every time you need." Gabriel placed his hand on Sam's to calm him down.
"A few days after you left our Dad came home. He was angrier than ever and he wanted to attack me. Dean said that he should leave me alone and let everything out on him instead. So they sort of made a deal. Dad lets me out of everything and for that he beats up Dean. He hasn't touched me since that. But that they he had nearly beaten Dean to death. Luckily he had to leave for some reason. Dean always got sadder and more depressive. When he and dad fought I could hear our dad tell him to die already. You leaving and our dad being like that brought him to self harm. Depression." Sam stopped taking a deep breath. Both, Castiel and Gabriel kept quiet. None of them said a word. "He got worse at school and about a month before this school year ended he knew he had to repeat this school year and then... only a few months ago he.. he tried to commit suicide. I found him on the bathroom floor. Blood everywhere. Luckily I was right on time.. Just a few minutes later and he would be... You know what our dad said when we were at the hospital and the doctor asked what happened? It was an accident. When Dean was able to go home again our Dad insulted him for being weak and not being able to kill himself the right way. I think just yesterday Dad found out he was with you.. He had a picture of you and Dean kissing.. After that I found him in the bathroom. He said he was just refreshing but I saw the blood soaking through his sweater. I don't know how this from today will affect him but I think that's nothing now." Sam pointed over to another table where Dean was sitting with his old gang. Tears rolled down Sam's face. "As the students from my class realized that Gabriel was gone they started bullying me again. This life is hell." Sam finished. Gabriel pulled him in into a tight hug. "I'm so sorry for leaving you alone." He whispered. Castiel breathed out loudly and ran his fingers through his hair. "Shit." He whispered. "He's with Abaddon now, as you see... He won't bother about anything within a few days anymore." Sam told. The brothers agreed. It has always been like that. As soon as he was with his gang he didn't care about anything anymore. "We will watch out for you now, Sam. I promise." Castiel said and stood up going back to the others. Gabriel wiped Sam's tears away and smiled at him. He softly kissed his cheek. "Wanna go back?" He asked. Sam only nodded and together they went back to Cas and his friends.

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After school Dean went home. As he entered the house there was no John in sight. "Sam?" Dean yelled. He got no response. "Sammy?" He yelled again when he was upstairs. Again. No response. Great now he really banished the person he loved the most.

Why am I still alive? Why am I still here? I do nothing but mistakes.

Dean ran his fingers through his hair to calm himself. What was he going to do now? The only people he had left were Abaddon and the others. And that was absolutely nothing what would last for a long time.

For hours Dean sat on the couch drinking whiskey and watching some odd TV-Shows when the door rang. He stood up and walked over to the door opening it. It was Abaddon. She grinned and walked up to him kissing him. Dean returned the kiss. Probably cause he was drunk like hell. "Finally something to be proud of." He suddenly heard his father's voice. Exactly now he had to come home. Great. But instead of insulting Dean he just walked in and disappeared in his room. Dean invited Abaddon in and they walked straight to Dean's bedroom. For sure that was the only reason Abaddon would've shown up. If it wasn't for sex she'd probably never show up at his house. One day within the whole year Cas was gone, she showed up out of nowhere. Dean couldn't resist. He was sad and mad and could've needed some distraction.
After letting out their "love" they dressed up again. It was something like a one night stand. "By the way Dean, I gotta tell you something." Abaddon said. "What is it?" Dean asked. "I'm pregnant." Abaddon said all serious. "You're joking." Dean couldn't believe it. Abaddon shook her head. "You little bitch." Dean stormed towards her and started beating her up. After a while of beating her up he gave up. "Ok, get your shit together. It was a joke!" She whined hoping for Dean to stop. Dean let go off her. "What kind of stupid joke is this?!" He yelled. No response. Abaddon slowly stood up and looked at Dean. "You're going to regret this."