Looking for true love

Chapter 8

Patrick sat in a taxi. He wanted to get to Kevin as fast as he could. He was scared. What the hell happend to him? He never heard him talk like that. What was it? What had made him cry. Fuck.. time moved so slowly He wanted to get there already.He was so confused. The only thing he did know for sure was that whatever it was, it was something pretty serious. Kevin would never talk to him, and ask him, beg him even like that unless it was something serious. Not after they have'nt had a REAL, honest conversation in months. All they were doing from the moment they broke up was playing games and teasing eachother. They both knew it. A big fucking rollercoaster. One day up and one day down.

When he finally got to the building all these emotions and memories started to come back . Shit. He wasn't in this building for so long. This was the place where it all gone bad. But he knew that he wasn't the issue now. Kevin was. he had to put everything else aside and go to him. Now. He needed him.

He went up to the apartment, took a deep breath and knocked.

'Come in', he heard Kevin's voice.

He opened the door slowly . Kevin was sitting on the floor by the sofa and was staring ahead. His eyes and nose were red. It looked like he was crying.

'Hey..', Patrick said quietly as he sat next to him.

'Hi..', Kevin looked at him 'Thank you.. for coming Patrick ..I'm sorry if I ruined your night.'

'It's ok. Don't worry about it... What happend Kevin? You scared me', Patrick asked concerned.

Kevin looked at him and remained silent.

'What is it? Tell me..'

'It's my dad. He...oh god... I'm a terrible person ,Patrick'

'What? Why do you say that?'

Kevin took a deep breath and started explaining.

'My aunt..my dad's sister..She called me and she told me...', Kevin couldn't continue talking.

'Kevin, please try to calm down. What did she say'

'Some neighbour found him in his house unconscious. God only knows how long he was laying there.all byhimself...Without anyone even knowing .'

'Jesus.. how is he now?', Patrick did not expect this.

Kevin looked away again. Tears started filling his eyes.

'He is not good Patrick. Not good at all', Kevin said still looking away.

'So... is he in the hospital now'

'Yeah he is. He is still unconscious ', Kevin answered. He looked at Patrick again and continued.

'She told me...apparently he...he has liver cancer... And it's bad.' Kevin burst in tears.' The doctors give him a few months tops. Apparently they caught it too late.'

Patrick looked at him. He wanted to cry with him but he knew he had to be strong for him. He took him in his arms and held him tight.

'I'm sorry.I'm so sorry... ', Patrick whispered in Kevin's ear.

'Wait...', Patrick pulled back after a few moments and looked at Kevin. 'But why did You say that you're a terrible person? I don't understand..'

Kevin looked at him and shook his head.

'Because I am. I'm awful..',Kevin wiped his tears, took a deep breath and looked at Patrick. 'About six weeks ago, when you were in New York, he came here to visit. At first he asked me to come there to visit him. He said he'd missed me, which was weird because my dad...well he never was the emotional type. I was really busy at work and me and you...we basically just broke up.. so I wasn't in the mood going there. And then..Without telling me..he showed up here, which was also very odd because he never came here or wanted to come in all the time I was living in America. Anyway, when he was here...'