Looking for true love

Chapter 9

'Can I sleep here tonight Patrick? Just for tonight? I don't want to be alone.'

Is he kidding? Patrick thought to himself. Does he really not feel the way Patrick is feeling? Who would go with someone all the way to Romford unless they were totaly fucking inlove. He wanted to tell him that he could stay with him forever if he wanted to.But Kevin looked so fucking upset. It was not the right time to confess now.

'Yes. Sure.. you can sleep here..'

'Thanks..well maybe not sleep. but hang out for a while? I was going crazy in my room alone.'

'Yeah...sure...', Patrick said disappointed.

'So.. are you hungry Patrick? If you are...we can go and have a quick late dinner. I know this pub nearby'

'I guess I could eat. But aren't you tired? I thought you must be...after the flight and being in the hospital all day'

'Not really.. I guess I'm still jet lagged. It's like after noon back home ,right? And I slept through the entire flight here. Maybe if we'll go out for a while, it would make me sleepy..Are you tired?'

'No..i'm good. Ok then...just give me five minutes and I'll be ready.'

A half an hour later they were sitting in the pub.

'Wow...I can't believe I'm actually in England. It's my first time in Europe you know', Patrick smiled as they drank.

'Well you haven't really seen Europe yet Patrick. It's just Romford. And you spent most of today in a hospital so.i don't think it actually counts..'

'Yeah.. maybe you're right. By the way, from what I HAVE seen, Romford isn't that bad as you described it . And this pub is not that shitty. I mean it's not New York or San Francisco but it's ok..', Patrick said as he looked around him.

'Yeah.. maybe I was too harsh. Maybe my description reflected the way I felt when I lived here.' Kevin looked around as well. ' Maybe I'll grow to love it when I'll move back here..Who knows.', he drank his beer.

'Yeah right...like you'll ever come back Kevin..'

'You know It's bound to happen eventually because of my visa. I have only 15 more months. Actually between you and me...when we were in the hospital today, I started thinking... Maybe I should move back now. ', Kevin said and looked at Patrick's eyes.

What? What? What? No. No. No.
Patrick thought.Shit. Right... the visa thing. He always tried to forget that. Shit.
He can't move here. And sure as hell not now.

'What? Now?', Patrick asked and tried to look nonshelant. His guess was that he wasn't too successful.

'Yeah..this way I will be able to spend time with my dad', Kevin said and looked away. '

'But, as you said you still have 15 months! What about your job?And what about your friends and...', Patrick said panicked.

'Calm down Patrick., Kevin interrupted. 'First of all..I will probably get great recommendations from MDG so it's pretty certain that I'll find something soon enough. Maybe in London... And friends.. well I'll make new ones here. Look, if my dad wasn't...you know then I probably would have waited until the end of my visa. But now? I need to be here with him. I can't take care of him if there's an ocean between us ,right?'.

Well no. Patrick couldn't let this happen. Maybe the timing was wrong but he had to say something. He had to say something to stop this crazy thoughts Kevin had. Kevin can't leave now. No way..

'What about me?', Patrick asked quietly.

'What about you?', Kevin looked confused.

'Are you ready to not see me again. I mean you kinda implied the other day that you're seeing someone. But still...you and me, if you'll go..it will be so final.', Patrick was desparate. His heart was beating so fast. He was afraid hearing kevin's answer. How will he react to this question.