Looking for true love

Chapter 19

'Jesus Kevin..Yes...I had a freak out but can you blame me for this one? I saw Jon...I realized you were fucking the neighbors...'

'I'm not blaming you Patrick.', Kevin Interuppted him. 'Look, I'm just thinking about the future.some of your freak outs will be justified, some won't and maybe I'll freak out too. God knows I freaked out yesterday too when you weren't answering my calls. I was so scared that Jon said something to you and that you're done with me. I was so worried and I had to come here, but I can't just jump on a plane everytime something like that happens. And yes maybe you had a legitimate reason to be mad or worried about me this time. But what about the next time? It's just not healthy for us to be in different continents with your spirals.'

'What? I can't believe this. My spirals? You are twisting everything. You should have told me about Jon being in a fucking fucking party with you and this wouldn't have happened. '

'What are you talking about? We we're never together at a party. I told you exactly what happend between us and it was in the apartment...'

'You also told me you have other things to say and you didn't had the chance to tell me..'

'You see Patrick? This is exactly what I'm talking about..we didn't have enough time together to talk. We need to be together. And I have to be there. I can't leave my dad when he's fighting for his life.'

'Im not asking you to leave him.'

'Ok. You're not asking me but look me in the eyes and tell me that you think we'll make it if we'll be apart for so long.'

'You think we won't? ', Patrick looked disappointed.

'I wish I could be sure. I know we love eachother, but we're not solid yet Patrick...we need more time to gain the trust again and be strong. We barely got together again...how will we survive for so long if we'll be apart? It's not realistic..'

'So you're giving me an ultimatum? ', tears started ro fill Patrick's eyes..'I go with you or you're done?'

'No...it's not an ultimatum babe..its just what I believe will happen. If we'll be together we'll survive and if we won't I don't see how this could work... and if I can't be here, it has to be there. The only question Is...', Kevin sighed. 'How much are you willing to sacrifice for us?'

'Wait..it will only be temporary, right? Only until your dad gets better. You hate the UK..'

'I guess...we can come back but who the hell knows ?maybe we'll love it there..'

'But you hated living there..'

'Patrick, don't you get it? Yes. Growing up there sucked. It was awful actually. I came here to find a better life for myself. To start fresh... But since I'd met you.. I realized that I'd rather be with you in the biggest dump out there than alone in the most amazing place in the world. And London is hardly a dump. Think about it baby.. we can start from scratch. ', he held Patrick's arms. 'We can have an amazing life there. Away from everything. Why are you so worried? Is it work? You are so fucking talented. You can find a Job there..I know it. I even thought about us opening a company there together. Think about it. It will be us working , having fun, designing our video games, just like we did with our app and we'll have all the freedom to do it as we like and with my management experience and your talented development skills, the sky is the limit..'

'Wow...you really thought about everything. Will you still be my boss?'

'Well. If you'll come we both will be bosses of eachother. Full partnership.'

'Wow..that sounds amazing ...but what about my friends? And family?'

'I know...your friends. That's the hardest thing but we can make new ones together. And there's skype and they can visit you there and you can visit here. And your family...well it's not like you're that close..how much do you see them anyway..'