Looking for true love

Chapter 23

'What is it? I can see something is bothering you..'

'It's nothing dad..', Kevin said to his father and tried to look relaxed.. Even though he wasn't. Not at all.

'Come on..I can see it all over your face son..tell me.I know you think I'm weak but you CAN tell me..'

'It's ok dad. Really..it's just some things about me moving here..', Kevin Interuppted him.

'I told you..you don't have to move. My sisters are here. I'll be fine. I'm worried about you.. What about your Job? What about..'

'No dad . We already talked about this..I'll get a job here. And my visa is about to expire anyway so... Look, the most important thing to me now is to be with you. Everything else will be ok. It has to be..', Kevin took a deep breath.

'Then what is bothering you, Kevin? Seeing you like this makes me nervous. '

Kevin looked at his dad and sighed. 'It's...Patrick. '

'What about him? I thought you guys are ok...'

'Yeah yeah..we are. But..his mother called me yesterday...and...honestly now I'm not so sure about him moving here.. '

'Why? What did she say?'

'Well...She said in a very polite way that it's crazy for him to leave everything and everyone for me and that I'm selfish to be asking him to.'

'I see..well that is a pretty hard thing to hear...so what did you say to her?'

'There weren't many times in my life when I was speechless but this was definitely one of those times. I didn't know what to say ..eventually I said that I believe it is the only way for us to keep this relationship solid.. but.. because I respect her opinion, I'll think about it.'

'Do you really believe that? That if Patrick won't move here you two will not survive?'

Kevin sighed. 'Yes dad...unfortunately I do.'

'Look son, god knows I'm not an expert in love, especially not between two guys..'

'Dad...'

'No..it was not a homophobic comment.. I accept you Kevin.I really do.. and I like Patrick and I can see how much you love him.. I just genuinely don't know if there's a difference in the dynamic between two men and a man and a women...'

'Well..couples are couples dad...', Kevin smiled.

'Yes..I guess..look son, what i am meaning to say is..if you think you will only survive if he comes here..That doesn't sound very healthy for a relationship. '

Kevin looked at him and didn't say anything.

'Why do you think you won't survive? You love eachother, right?'

'Yes we do...we love eachother.', Kevin paused. 'Look dad..It's a long and complicated story..'

'Well..I have time..I'm not going out of this hospital anytime soon, right?', Kevin's dad said cynically.

Kevin smiled weakly. 'Ok..you asked for it..Well..I told you that we started our relationship when I was still with Jon..'

'Yes..'

'Ok..so when Patrick and I finally got together officially...the fact that I cheated on Jon eventually...'

'Made him think you will do the same thing to him..'

'Well some things happend that I'll tell you about but..Yes..exactly! And that is ridiculous because there's no way you can compare what I felt for Jon to what I feel for Patrick. With Patrick..it's that kind of love you read about in old books or see in movies and if you are a cynical person you don't even believe it exists...I certainly haven't. I didn't think I could be so invested and inlove with someone...and when he ended it with me because I couldn't leave Jon...I was Iike a dead man walking. I couldn't believe how I let myself be so vulnerable to him. It is like he has this power over my heart. And he can destroyed it in a second.