Someone, Somewhere // Ben Bruce

Chapter 40

I tossed and turned before I woke up to see Ben wasn't there. I groaned as I sat up before I heard talking coming from down the stairs. I walked down the stairs to see Ben sitting in the lounge talking to a complete stranger.

"Babe, come here I want you to meet someone" Ben chirped as I shook my head but he wasn't giving me a choice. I was only wearing really short shorts and a vest top so I wasn't covered or respectable looking at all.

I walked in with a really shy smile as I looked at the guy sitting on my sofa. "Hello Lyle, I'm Denis. I've heard a lot about you" he said with a thick accent as he held out his hand and I shook it.

He is very slim. His hair is a deep brown and straight. His fringe sweeps over his face and the sides feather onto his face. His eyes are a deep brown until they are in the light. He has his nose pierced and tattoos down both his arms. Overall he is very good looking and he will fit in Asking Alexandria very well.

"Hi how are you?" I asked as he smiled. "I am very happy, you?" he answered and continued the conversation. "I'm okay" I answered as I nodded and smiled before I sat down next to Ben. Denis had a calm feel about him. I think that's why Ben has taken to him so well.

They sat and spoke into the night before they decided to go out and meet the guys. Today was my first time meeting Denis and I think he is a nice guy. He will do well for Asking Alexandria but overall it's not up to me if he stays, it's up to the majority of fans and the guys...

It's been a few months since Denis arrived and I've barely seen Ben. He's been rehearsing with Denis and I'm not going to lie. He was amazing but now it was time for him to put it to the test. Warped Tour.

I was sitting with Ben at the front door as he smoked a cigarette. I rubbed my eyes as Ben and Denis spoke. Both of them woke me up at 6am. Ben wanted us all to have a nice day together before they left.

Denis was becoming the brother I never had and he was a more positive for Ben. He is so full of life and I've never seen anyone so excited to be going on tour even though it could cause the end to Asking Alexandria.

I looked down my drive to see two suitcases, two people and four small dogs. The Guilberts have arrived. As they got closer I became more and more shocked. "HOLY SHIT" I screamed as I turned to see Ben with the same expression as me.

Eva was huge. I could definitely tell there were two healthy babies growing. "How are you?" I yelled as Eva stuck her middle finger up at me. "Pregnant. I'm very pregnant" she answered sarcastically before she sat next to me.

"You've not got long to go have you?" Ben asked as Eva thought for a minute. "Around two months" she answered as Ben and I looked at each other. "But Johnnie will be at Warped..." I said slowly.

"I should have arrived home by the time she goes into labour" Johnnie explained as I nodded. I knew he wouldn't want to miss his kids being born. Just as Johnnie finished explaining the bus pulled into the drive.

Denis practically ran on from excitement as Eva and Johnnie struggled to hug each other properly. Ben and I stood up before he grabbed me and pulled me in tightly. "I love you so fucking much" he whispered before he placed his lips on mine.

After a long passionate kiss I hugged him again. I didn't want him to go. I always missed him but I knew this was going to happen. I mean that's a huge part of his job. He makes thousands of people happy and he does what he loves, his greatest passion, music.

After finally letting go I said "I love you Ben. Good luck, have fun" He smiled sweetly before walking to the bus and getting on. They drove past Eva and I as they turned to drive away. Ben and Johnnie were at the window. Ben blew me a kiss as Johnnie blew Eva one.

I was going to miss him but now I had to look after a heavily pregnant Eva. We walked in as I took her case up the stairs to her room. I walked back down the stairs to see her sitting in one of the hanging chairs. My hanging chair...

I walked over to Bens. As soon as I sat in it I could smell his scent. In a weird way it was calming. "Are you nervous?" Eva asked. "A little. People might hate them and that would kill Ben but I shouldn't be the person getting asked if I'm nervous. How are you feeling?" I explained.

She rubbed her stomach as she thought for a minute. "I'm fucking petrified but I can't wait. I want to have my babies and I just want them out. I'm back is killing me" she explained as I nodded. I can understand what she means.

"Well now you can just relax. I am your happy maid as long as you don't wake me up at six in the morning" I said with a cheeky smile as we both laughed. "Right, I have to do a bit of morning yoga so you can just relax and read" I laughed as she nodded before pulling her phone out of her pocket.

After getting changed into Sleeping with Sirens leggings and a tight vest top I was ready. I started with simple stretches as Eva sat and read things on her phone. Every now and then she would giggle and shake her head... I'm sure I'll find out why...

I stood up and went into the standing bow as Eva burst out laughing. "What the fuck is it?!" I asked as tears streamed down her face. "Since I've not been able to do much I got bored so I started reading fanfics and some are amazing and quite witty and then you get the ones that go to the extremes" she explained.

"Okay..." I said not quite believing it'll be that interesting. "Okay I'll read you a bit" she said as she flicked through the pages on her phone before stopping. "Are you ready?" she asked as I nodded.

"I was at the side of the bridge as Lyle ran at me. She had hated me since I met her at Warped. She knew Ben loved me. Not her. I closed my eyes before I heard a scream. I opened them to see Ben pushing Lyle off the bridge before he ran over to me and kissed me passionately before it turned into heated sex. We didn't care who seen" she read as I almost collapsed.

"YOU ARE JOKING!" I yelled as I started to laugh before leaping over and reading the page that was on her phone. It was pretty eye opening to see what this kid thought of me. I wasn't that bad was I?

"Lyle you need to read some" Eva said as I nodded. I sat next to her and we both had a little laugh at some Fanfics. Some were so strange and I realised how people really don't know me that well.

They all knew how Ben acted but they all either had me as a psycho, a cheat, a murderer, an absolute bitch or some had me as quite a nice and genuine person but they were never really like me even though some were close.

I walked up the stairs as I got a FaceTime call from Ben. I answered it to see him on the lounge in the bus. They guys were all behind him as they yelled my name and waved. I stuck my middle finger up at them as they did it back.

"How is everything babe?" Ben asked as he started walking away from the guys. "It's all fine. There's no evil ex yet" I said trying to add a bit of humour but it never really worked. "Look I've been thinking" Ben started as I became nervous.

"I really want us to have a kid" he continued as I froze. He has hinted before but I didn't really take him seriously but now he was actually saying it to me and he wasn't joking. He was being deadly serious.

"Ben..." I started as he cut me off. "Seeing Eva today and listening to how Johnnie has been speaking all day about how excited he is for Eva to give birth to their kid and how they'll have their little family. It's made me think and I really want that. I want us to be a proper family with children." He explained as he looked at me with rather upset eyes.

I didn't know what to say. What do you say? "Ben..." I sighed as he looked down at the floor. "You need to get home first, then we can start trying. It'll be a lot of fun" I said with a small smile and a wink as he looked like the Cheshire cat. That's one person happy...

After a long day of laughing with Eva and looking after her I decided to go to my bed. As soon as Eva went to hers I heard snoring. She was getting really tired now but she hasn't got long to go. I couldn't help but think how much those kids are going to change her life. They will be so happy but then I started questioning my life if I had kids.

What if it ruined my relationship with Ben? What if I lost it? What if the kid grew up to hate me? What if I wasn't stable enough to have a kid? What if I died through childbirth? What if Ben left me? Maybe having a kid wasn't for me...