i wish love could take physical form
so you could see what I never seem to have the courage to say
and no, this has nothing to do with romance and some doomed love story like the notebook
i wish love was liquid
so that my friends can see it ooze out of my pores every time their names reach my ears
until all my clothes are drenched and smelling sickly sweet with its scent
until a small puddle forms at my feet so they can watch it become the river i drown in
and the mouth would be wherever they are
covering them entirely as their accepting hearts soak it all up
and i finally get the first hit of air in my lungs
i wish love was solid
so that my sister can see the weight in my chest increase when she smiles at me
until my back caves and my ribs break
because no chest cavity can hold the love
i have marked with the sound of her laughter
and she would smile again, knowing how much she means to me
as she helps me carry it because no weight is ever mine alone in those rare moments i am gifted with her presence
i wouldn't wish for love to be a gas
it often goes unseen, instead
i wish love was light
so they may be as blinded as I often am by how much i feel for them
until they can not see anything else in the room except my love for them
piercing through my chest like cupid's arrow
a rainbow stretching across the room to them
and maybe then they will understand that it is Them that i found
at the end of the rainbow
