Meet Me There ( RusAme )

Chapter Four ~ Ivan

I sit on the cool dirt and grass forest floor, leaning against a tree, the clearing right beside me where I first met that intriguing boy. Well, there was nothing really childish about him, so I suppose I can't call him a boy. Besides, he is my age about after all.

I'm actually waiting for said male, Alfred is his name. In my head I mull over what I know of him, and I'm disappointed to say its not much. That's why I was eager to come back to meet him.

When I finally returned home after meeting Alfred, with all the fire wood I chopped, I had some time to rest and think about him. He seemed nice. Very intriguing. One could immediately tell Alfred is well off, but he didn't quite seem to act like it. There was this fire in his eyes that I saw and recognized as the need to be freed, or the wanting of something else.

I don't see what he could possibly need or want though. If he really is well off, he should be able to have anything he wants. Perhaps I will have to try to find that out the next time I see him.

Anyway, I thought about him, and I realized I was excited that I might be able to finally have a friend. I thought, maybe this could work out. I certainly would not mind a friend, I really don't have any.

That's why I came back to the clearing as soon as I can. Which is today, eight days after the first time we met. It's a little late in the evening, but I told my sisters I needed to get some more firewood.

I'll have to find another excuse soon, before that one is worn out and they no longer believe me. I'll worry about that some other time.

I've already been waiting here for about an hour, so I wonder if I should go home now, but I just keep holding onto that small sliver of hope that he might come.

I suppose I shouldn't get my hopes up, he did say he wasn't sure when he would be able to come back, but I just can't force myself to leave for fear of missing him.

I know I'll have to go home soon if I don't want to be caught out here in the dark, but a few more minutes won't hurt anything will it?

No, I can wait a little longer. I lightly tap my fingers on my leg, thinking to myself. I think of all the things I could be doing and fixing right now if I wasn't here in the clearing, but I just wanted to see my friend again.

I'll do what needs to get done tomorrow. I'll work twice as hard to make up for a day off. That should work out just fine. Then my sisters won't suspect anything suspicious.

Minutes pass, and I get more jumpy. I really did want to see him tonight, but I should leave now so it doesn't get dark before I can make it home. And I didn't even gather any firewood, so there goes my excuse.

Standing up slowly, I decide I'll go now, and just look for firewood on my way home. There is bound to be something I can easily carry home. Even if its just a little bit, it will do.

Walking home, my knees ache, and I want to just fall to the ground and sleep the rest of my days away, but I push on, searching for firewood.

I can't help but feel sad and disappointed that Alfred did not show up though. My knees seem to be more painful then usual, and I can't help but wonder if they some how understand my feelings and also feel the same way.

I find some logs on the floor of the forest, and I grab them and carry them with me. After a few minutes my back begins to ache, and I wonder if my back is like my knees, and is also mourning the missed chance of seeing Alfred.

What is wrong with me? I can't seem to get him out of my head. Is this what having a first friend is like? Perhaps, I would not know. Or maybe I just worked too hard today, and my body needs a rest.

It seems my mind could use some sleep as well. I look forward to being able to go to bed tonight. More the usual.

Reaching the house, it's dark outside now, and I realize I should have left a little earlier. I set the firewood I collected on the pile that still needs to be chopped and I enter a quiet house.

"Hallo?" I call out, and I don't immediatly get a reply.

I see Irena walk out in her pajamas, rubbing an eye lightly. "Welcome home. Sorry, Natalia and I went to bed with out you."

I walk over and kiss my sister on the cheek. "Oh no worries. Sorry to wake you, and sorry I'm so late. Please, go back to bed."

With a nod and a yawn, Irena walks to her and Natalia's room, and I walk to mine. Changing my clothes, I get a wave of sadness as I realize it may be a while before Alfred and I can see each other, and tonight was completely wasted.

I shake my head, deciding I need to keep my priorities straight, and only go to the clearing when there is absolutely nothing else to do. I must keep this house in good shape for my sisters.

Laying in bed, I can't help but wonder what Alfred is doing, if he came to the clearing after I left, and everything else. With a shake of my head I scold myself silently for acting so interested in some one I only met once, and may never see again.

Once more, I find myself wondering if this is what a friendship feels like.

~AN~
Oh dear. I feel like this is kind of a lame update. What do you guys think? I don't know what to think.... I think it's a necessary chapter, but perhaps it was a little early? I don't know, I just know I wanted to get an update for you guys. Well, sorry it's late but here it is, hope you enjoy and sweet dreams!
~Blü~

Ivan = Russia
Irena = Ukriane
Alfred = America
Natalia = Belarus