Hopeless Case! A Story of love and lust!

Chapter 3: Trixx's Paranoia

As we walk along the street of Mother Ignacia and cant think of anything to do,

finally, I agreed to take a cab and off to somewhere,

Whilst inside the cab,

"Kuya may alam ka po bang maiinuman pa? kasi galing na po kami ng Shaw, at dito nga po sa Ignacia,

meron pa po bang bukas around this time?" tanong ni Nathan sa driver,

"Ay, naku, sarado na po halos lahat, alam nyo na pasko bakit hindi na lang kayo sa mga bahay nyo mag inom?" tanong ni kuya driver sa amin

"Kuya tulog na kasi mga tao sa amin, ayoko mang istorbo, and alangan naman na dalin ko to sa bahay namin lalaki sya?or sumama ako sa bahay nya! hehehe" sagot ko sa driver with sarcasm.

Kuya took his radio and asked his co drivers if there are any bars that are still open,

"May alam ba kayong maiinuman? kasi yung pax ko naghahanap pa, may YL syang kasama, kaya hindi pwede beer house ha!" sabi ni kuya driver sa ka radyuhan nya...

"naku may YL? wala na bro, sarado na lahat naghanap din kanina yung pax ko." sagot naman nung kabila...

habang nag raradyuhan yung dalawa, we both looked at each other and wonder what YL and pax means, so we tried to figure it out.

"YL? uhmmm pax maybe pasahero? pero anu yung YL?" tanong ko kay Nathan,

"YL tawag nila sa babae siguro? hehehehe" sagot naman ni Nathan sa akin, at sabay tawa kami,

Narinig ata ni kuya Driver ang pinag uusapan namin

"Young Lady po ang YL,code po namin yun" sagot ni kuya driver at sabay sabay kaming tumawa with matching aha moment!

"ehh saan ko ho ba kayo maihahatid? wala naman po kayong sinabi sa akin," tanong ni kuya driver

"Saan ho ba mainam matulog?" tanong ni Nathan sa driver

natuliro ako sa tabi nya pero hindi ko pinahalata, sa loob loob ko "anu balak gawin sa akin netong payat na toh? homiguide! just act like natural, wag ka pahalata na kinakabahan ka na Trixx, chill stay put and calm... shit! hindi to pwede! chill Trixx Chill!"

"Wag ka kabahan wala akong gagawin sayo, we'll just sleep ok? pwede din namang gising lang, kwentuhan nalang pwede ba yun, tuloy na natin ang randomness na to,"

"OK, sige lang" I said as if I am not in the state of paranoia and scared.

alright I know, I am tattooed and looks easy however this is not me,

I never slept with someone who is a complete stranger to me,

Im not playing virgin or what so ever, one night stand isnt my REALLY thing,

but I need to keep calm, and atleast trust him, he is really skinny and I am bigger than

him so if he did something I can easily crush him, in fact my fist is bigger than his!

So as the driver drove to our unknown destination, I manage to keep calm and

still chit chat with him, though my eyes are quite tired I didnt let myself sleep inside the cab,

I looked outside to check where we at, looking at every bank we passed by to make sure where we at,

We arrived to our destination, he paid the cab and approached the receptionist,

so he logged in and took the keys, he held my hand and guide me inside the lift,

still I am speechless, he broke the silence in me,

"Are you ok? it seems like you havent said a word since we came here."

"Im fine, uhmmm.. to be honest this is really new to me, and I havent done this before.."

"C'mon Trixx, as if I am going to rape you or something, Im not that type of guy, I can assure you, you'll be going home safe and sound once we leave this place, Im sorry if I sorta scare you, this is also my first time to asked a girl who isnt my girlfriend to be with me the entire night, and I am no maniac! hehehe"

so I was kinda relieved of what he told me.. as we walk the aisle going to the room

we are both in silence, maybe we are both surprise of what is going on or whatever,

but for me I am still thinking what will gonna happen once we step in that room!

"Here we are! C'mon Trixx, as I've said you'll be ok,"

"Ok" then we entered the room, I was surprised with the room its not that small unlike the usual

motels I've seen, the bed is bigger and there's a dresser with nice big mirrors, and there's a led tv hanging on the wall, the AC is also working perfectly, the bathroom is on the other side of the bed,

so what I did I go straight inside the bathroom, whilst Nathan starts to remove his sneakers and his jacket,

umupo ako sa toilet bowl, nag iisip at kinakabahan pa din sa possibilities na pwedeng mangyari,

I know OA tong ganto ko, pero c'mon I still value myself! hay naku bahala na!

gaya nga ng sabi ko, mas malaki kamao ko sa kanya at di hamak na payat sya! kaya ko sya patumbahin!ahh hindi ako maliligo or mag sha shower, para mangamoy yosi at alak lang ako!

sabay hinga ng malalim! muntik na ako mapatalon ng magulat ako sa sunod sunod nyang katok...

"Trixx Ok ka lang ba dyan?"

"Ahh Oo, Oo, Ok lang ako, nag hihilamos lang ako,palabas na din ako!"

"yung towel naiwan mo dito sa labas i aabot ko ba?"

at nilabas ko nga ang kamay ko at kinuha ang inaabot nyang towel, bukas ang ilaw at yung tv

naririnig ko Gangnam Style yung kanta! hehehe medyo kahit papano narerelieve ako pero hindi pa din maalis sa isip ko ang maging paranoid,

"Gangnam Style? hahaha" habang nagpupunas ako ng aking mukha,

"Alam mo na eto ang mainstream ngayon! wala akong no choice kung di panuorin sya, wag ka, tagal nya nag intay to be in the lime light he had previous albums too!"

"Woow Follower ka nya? hahaha"

"Just read that, You know random reading..."

So I sat beside him and lit a fag, he did the same and took the ash tray from the bedside table and put it beside me, still we are watching MTV,  and talking about music, all of a sudden he lied down and my paranoia starts again,

"Trixx can we turn the lights off? antok na ako bigat na ng mata ko, kung gusto mo matulog sige lang eto unan lagay mo sa gitna natin,sige tuloy mo lang panunuod mo dyan, kung hindi ka pa inaantok,"

"Sige patayin ko na lang yung ilaw, tulog ka na! ok lang ba temp ng AC?"

tumango sya...

at natulog na nga sya, habang ako ay nagiisip kung titiisin ko ba ang antok na toh, o

matutulog na din, makiki share ba ako ng kumot o hahayaan ko na lang lamigin ang katawan ko,

bakit ba naman kasi ito pang maigsing short ang naisip ko isuot at ang manipis kong tshirt! kakainis!

epic fail talaga!

Dahil hindi na talaga kaya ng katawan ko at umiepekto na ang alak sa akin, wala na akong nagawa kundi ang matulog din sa tabi nya, tumalikod ako at niyakap ang isa pang unan, hati man kami sa kumot, pero nakaharang pa din ang malaking unan sa amin...