Seeing You Again

Chapter 10

Bello!! Update! And This chapter is all to do with Xavier! ((Btw the song is called Firestone)) plz play the song riiiiiight now.

~Xavier's POV~
I collapse to the ground.
I really messed up.
I was too caught up in my own world to think about everyone else.
I slowly get back up and walk to my car like a zombie.
I sit in my car staring into nothing.
Even though it felt like there wasn't anything on my mind I was having a million thoughts a second.
What have I done...
I turn on my car and drive home
as I drive it starts to rain.

I pull up at my driveway and watch the rain from my car window.
I sigh as I turn off my car and open the door.
I feel the cold, wet rain land on my face and soak my clothes.

I run to the front door and open it jogging to my room down the hallway.
I slide off my soaked shoes and run my hands through my hair.
I inhale then exhale suddenly feeling agitated.
Jerome wasn't the only bipolar person, only he had more control over it where as I didn't!

I pick up a a CD case that was lying on my bed and throw it at my wall.
I watch as it smashes, little pieces of plastic flying everywhere.

I pick up a book on my bedside table and rip it page from page starting to cry.
I nearly ripped out the last page.
But the writing stopped me from ripping it.
I read it silently.
I read what it said again;

Don't be a douche and ruin the ending for yourself!
Happy Birthday Xavier Meriff!
From Your Main Man Daniel.

I slide my fingers over the words knowing I lost my best friend.
My silent crying turns into a thunderstorm of disgustingly loud sobs.

I stand back up throwing things around my room.
A pillow, another CD case, a CD, a DVD, an office chair and a book.
I yell as I throw and break things.
"I hate this! I'm so stupid! I wish I didn't exist! If I didn't exist I-I wouldn't of messed everyone's lives up," I breakdown my knee's giving way from underneath me.

I hear a knock on my door, "Xavier you have visitors clean up your room or don't, its not my fault you break down every two minutes," A voice rang from behind my closed bedroom door.
I live with my sister because our parents were murdered, they were shot in front of my eyes.
I remember it perfectly.
But I don't want to talk/think about that...

I scramble and sit on my bed as I hear my bedroom door open.
I turn to my window on the other side of my room crossing my legs on the bed.

"Hey baby," A feminine voice chirps from behind me. I turn around a grin poking at my lips.
"Hey Clary," I say happily, well as happy as I could get.

I was still heaving a bit from my sobs.
"What's wrong? Your sister said you burst into your room and started screaming and throwing things..." Clary said as she sits in front if me.

I pull her into my lap.
"Long story short I'm a fuck up.... I ruin everyone's lives... You were right Clary, I should've listened.... I should've stopped when you told me too..." I say choking in my words.

"Hey Xavier it's okay. We all make mistakes," She whispered, her voice was soothing.

"Clarissa I-I hate this place... If it wasn't for me no one would be crying no one would be hurt.... But I did hurt people, I made people cry because of their personality and sexuality.... I don't why I do it...." I say thinking out loud.

"Maybe because you're trying to avenge your parents by hurting the wrong people," I scoff at this.

I push her off of my lap, "I cannot BELIEVE you just said that!" I yell standing now. "I cannot believe you! To be quite honest Xavier, I know you don't have a heart! You're stone cold the only reason I'm with you is because the girls said I should go out with you!" She fires back at me.

I stare at her shocked at what she said. She covers and mouth saying sorry over and over. "Are you fucking kidding me?!" I scream, "The only fucking reason you're dating me is because your friends said we should?!" I yell pointing an accusing finger.

"No Xavier I didn't mean it please!" She says tears brimming her eyes.
"Get Out! please... leave....." I say now pointing at the door.

I PROMISE MEROME NEXT CHAPTER!!!!!
OKAY I'M THINKING OF DOING A QNA SO PLEASE LEAVE QUESTIONS FOR ME :3
~Shipping OUT