Nightmares

chapter nine

"Y/n! Y/n!" Newt is shaking me, trying to wake me up.

I open my eyes and gasp. Newt stops shaking me and kneels beside my bed. By now the panic attack has begun and I'm hyperventilating. Newt gets up from the ground and sits next to me, putting his arm around me.

"What was it this time?"

I pull my legs up to my chest and lean into his shoulder. "You took me from the garden, I was just planting tomatoes and you brought me into your room and then tied me to a chair. You kept asking me why I had come here, what I was going to do to everyone else, and how to get out of the maze. I was asking why you were doing this and you wouldn't stop interrogating me. The last thing you asked me was who the creators were, like I had all the answers. You gave up after awhile and got Alby to put me in the slammer."

I started sobbing again, for the third time in 24 hours.

"It was me again?" Newt says, sadder than I've ever heard him.

"Yeah..."

"You know I would never banish you, or interrogate you, or put you in the pit, or hurt you in any way, right?"

"I know, I don't know where this is coming from, I'm sorry." I tuck my head into his shoulder so I won't have to look at him.

He rests his head on top of mine. "Don't be sorry. Don't ever be sorry, this isn't your fault. I should be the one apologizing."

"Newt..."

"No! I feel like I'm causing this."

I untuck my head so I can face him. "It's not your fault, Newt."

"Yeah it is."

I wrap my arms around his waist. "No it's not."

He scoops me up and onto his lap. "It's not your fault either."

"But-"

"Shh. No it's not," Newt interrupts.

"Newt?" I whisper.

"Yes, love?"

"Can you do me a favor?"

"Anything."

"Will you stay with me tonight?"

"Of course." He shifts around so we're both lying down and he pulls the blanket over us.

I sigh and look into his eyes. "Thank you, for everything."

"Of course," he says. He looks at me for a few seconds and then he leans in and kisses me.

Suddenly he stops. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-"

Surprising myself, I kiss him.

His arms snake around my waist, pulling me closer to him. I wrap my right arm around his neck while my left hand is tangled in his hair. We kiss until we're too tired to continue.

"Good night, y/n."

"Good night."