Ever After «A Law & Order: SVU Fanfic»

Chapter Nine: The Opening Up Part

Zoe's POV:

I'm sitting in a circle, about twelve other boys and girls my age around me. Everyone looks sad or sick, and I want to help them. Who the hell am I kidding? I can't even help myself.

All the girls I met five minutes ago are here, Dawson tries to make eye contact with me but I just try to keep to myself to avoid actually having to converse with people. We all wait while the doctors file in, the silence is awkward and I want nothing more than to leave. I miss my mom so much. I feel like I'm putting her through too much and she'll hate me once this is all over.

Dr. Robbins, Dr. Crane, Dr. Avery and Dr. Alexander pull up chairs to the circle to see who's present. I keep my head down and hunch over so I can stare at my feet.

"How is everyone?"Dr. Robbins asks, trying to lighten up the dull mood present in the room. Everyone groans a little or shifts in their chair.

"Who would like to start off group today?"asked Dr. Robbins. No one raises their hand or speaks up, the room is still.

"Dawson, how about you?"says Dr. Alexander with his smile.

"How about not?"she says back rudely, I look over at her with a half smile and she winks.

"Alyssa, tell us about yourself."says Dr. Alexander.

She rolls her eyes, "Yeah, I didn't raise my hand. So no..."

"Zoe? How about you? Share with us."said Dr. Robbins, I guess she noticed me and Dawson.

"No. I don't feel like sharing."I told her firmly, sitting up straight, looking at the other patients.

"Zoe, if you want to get out of here soon, you need to speak."said Dr. Avery.

"Ok...fine. Obviously, I'm Zoe. Uh, I don't really know why I'm here. All the doctors think I subconsciously tried to killed myself when I was at a party. I don't really know how to react because I was so out of it in the first place. My mother is a police officer, well she's Sergeant, and I haven't really been able to talk to her how I've wanted to ever since everything happened-"

"What happened to you?"said Alyssa, finally speaking. I was silent, I wanted to get words out of my mouth. Now everyone is staring for an answer.

"My friend was murdered, right in front of my face. I was kidnapped, and raped..."I said taking a deep breath afterwards.

"What'd you do? How did you get out?"another girl asked. Then, a million questions started to hit the air.

"He left me and I was supposed to find my way back home alone. I was in a forest."

"So he knew he would get caught? That's sick."said a boy with blonde hair and dark eyes.

"I guess so...I mean, I found out that he had been stalking my friend, then he started to fixate on me. It's twisted."

After answering a million questions about everything, everyone realized that group was over. Everyone wanted to know everything about me, I don't know if that's good, but I'm sure I made new friends.

I walk out of the room last, waiting for Dr. Kent who's supposed to be showing me the room I'm going to. Instead, I find all the doctors, and for some reason, I always did find them intimidating while together. I get this sort of tingling in my stomach that makes me nervous, I feel like I'm being judged and watched.

"That was good today, Zoe."said Dr. Avery with a smile.

"No...that was extremely personal stuff. Unfiltered. I hate being put on the spot like that, everyone does. And I don't appreciate the whole blackmailing thing either. I'm going home Wednesday, whether you want me to or not."I told her, suddenly angrily.