Ever After «A Law & Order: SVU Fanfic»

Chapter Twelve: Stabler Surprise

"Oh my, god! It can't be you!"I say as he hugs me.

"It's me."he says with a laugh.

"What are you doing here?"I ask him in awe.

"I heard about what happened to you...I'm sorry about Lucy. I know how close you two were."he says with a look of pity, for some reason, I don't mind when Elliot feels bad for me, I get this weird sense of comfort.

"Yeah, I'm still, recovering..."I say, my face turning red.

"It takes time."he says lightly.

"Yeah. I know. It's rough. But I was going to come find you, I needed someone to talk to. No one understands me much at this point."

"Hey, who's this?"interrupts Amanda with a raised eyebrow, me and Elliot both look over at each other.

"Uh--this is...actually my uncle, Robby. Robby meet Amanda?"I say, poking Elliot in the ribs with my elbow.

"Brian's brother, nice to meet you."he replies in character, shaking Amanda's hand.

"Yeah, we're going to go catch up on life in my mother's office, ok?"I say, my face burning with guilt.

"Whatever floats your boat, darling."says Amanda, then I rush him over to Mom's office.

"Why'd you make me lie?"he says, sitting down at one of the chairs in front of my Mom's desk, I go around and sit in her swivel chair.

"Because, they don't know you. Do you know how lucky you are that my mother and Fin aren't here? Elliot, they will kill you."

"I know it was wrong, but I knew your mother would be alright. She was strong, she had your father with her, she didn't need me piggybacking her all the time."he says with his head down.

"No, she wasn't alright. Even before you left, my parents were close to the divorce. Dad was cheating on Mom and no one noticed. When you left, her heart broke, and my dad was gone by then, he left her for some young chick. It took every fiber in her body to get up out of bed and provide for us. She cared. We both cared."I say, because the rush of emotions hit me hard.

I remember Mom crying, for days on end. Any little thing that reminded her of Elliot would break her into a million pieces, which happened to be just about everything. She couldn't eat for the longest because she would get sick to her stomach, and didn't do overtime because she hated being at work without him.

I honestly don't believe that she has ever recovered from it all. When Amanda and Nick came in as new detectives, she pretty much despised them until she got to know them pretty well. After Munch left, it brought back the memory of Elliot's departure, there was that big change again, she had to deal with it alone unfortunately.

Becoming sergeant took a lot out of her, not to mention when she was kidnapped by William Lewis. Then IAB was down her throat, combing through her life with a wide tooth comb. (A.N: this will be a whole other story, I'll make a prequel to it.). I couldn't possibly imagine how this felt without Elliot, the only man that she genuinely loved.

"I don't know how I could possibly try and help her forgive me. I'm divorced, Kathy has the kids, I'm alone. It took me long enough to realize that Kathy wasn't the woman I wanted to be with. And of course, I love her, she is the mother of all my children, but I didn't want to be with her. I wanted to be with your mother."he says looking around the office, all the photos and accomplishments my mother was able to obtain while he was gone practically stabbing him in the chest.

"Don't think that you weren't on her mind when all of this happened. She may have done a lot, but a lot has happened to her. Have you heard about Lewis?"I say awkwardly, pushing my hair behind my ears.