DaddyDomH (Harry Styles Fanfic)

Chapter 40

"Fifteen dollars miss" The taxi driver said turning his head. I sighed going through my wallet and quickly gave him a ten and five saying a low thank you as I go out. My heart was racing just seeing this place. Probably because this was the stupidest thing I ever did. Maybe... but, what could he possibly do to me behind bars?

Nothing I hope...

I started heading to the building and felt my phone vibrate. Probably Harry responding to my text. I told him I was doing a bit of shopping today and he was more than happy to give me more money than I already had. Probably so I could get some lingerie while I was out. Maybe I'll buy the whole store for him. I chuckled at that thought as I read it quickly.

Okay Love, Enjoy your day out, be safe , I'll see you later and I love you.

I shut it off before even walking in the building to see security guards walking around. I took a deep breath walking to the desk and telling them who I was here to see. I filled out papers about me, gave id and went through a metal detector handing them my phone and keys to hold.

It all went too quick to me, it felt like in the blink of an eye I was sitting at a open table waiting. I looked around at the other inmates having visitors smiling as I sat him nervous as fuck. I just looked around the room quietly hoping it would all go okay. I didn't want anything else fucking up. I wanted to settle everything.

I froze as I saw him walking out of the back in a orange jumpsuit. Hair was laid back, and he was growing a beard now I guess, he still looked the same as he did before though. He searched the room, stopped looking at me then instantly down. I didn't know what to do but sit there and wait till he sat down to get the answers i've been wanting for.

With every step closer my heart sped up even more till he was right across from me sitting in the chair with his hands on the table. It stayed silent for a while as I watched him and he watched me.

"How are you?" "Why did you want me to come?" I asked quickly and he looked down biting his lip as I leaned back in my chair still watching him. I didn't come for chit chat, I came for answers and only answers "Surprised you came" "Ten seconds" I warned watching him. Just because I came here doesn't mean he was forgiven either. If it wasn't for Niall I doubt I would have came anyway.

He licked his lips then looked back up at me "I wanted to apologize" he whispered. "For?" I asked and he sighed looking away. "Manipulation, physical and mental abuse, harassment, blackmail, the video... everything that hurt you involving me"

I just sat there trying to think of something to say at the moment but nothing came. What do you say in this situation? Can you actually forgive someone like him at all? He caused so much hurt, more than I feel I can just forgive right now. If it could happen, it would take more than just a few weeks.

"I know I did a lot to hurt you and fuck up your life and I know it's hard to forgive or even believe but I'm serious with this apology. It was disgusting and knowing that if I had a daughter and someone did that to her, I would kill them or at least do what Harry did" he whispered.

Good knowing he knew he fucked up but one more thing I needed from him "Why did you do it in the first place?" I asked and he shrugged breaking the eye contact and looking down "Cause i'm a asshole" "So you did all of that because you're an as-" "No" he quickly whispered cutting me off. "So what was it?"

"Envy" he whispered looking up to me. I leaned forward instantly seeing his eyes glossy. Envy? What the hell did he envy? Why was he about to cry?

I will honestly say I didn't expect either of those things today.

"I envy everything Harry has. He has everything. Harry was always the popular guy. He always got everything... including you" He leaned on the table still not looking at me "For years i've busted my ass to get everything I want while it all fell into his fucking hands. I never got anything easy" he snarled as tears started to fall down his cheek.

I looked down at my hands biting my lip hearing him talk. I still didn't know what to say.

"Of course that doesn't excuse anything but, that did drive me to lose my mind... i let everything build up and... I snapped once he met you" Me? Why me? "He had Heath-" "Heather was just a fuck toy and you know it. You were different from the start. The way he talked and acted around you proved that, even if he didn't realize it at first"

"I wanted love, someone that was loyal, smart...you" he stated making my heart stop but I didn't move.

"Harry found it without even fucking realizing it while I was dying to have it. He didn't see what he had" He spat louder making me jump a bit and look around meeting a few eyes on us including all the guards in the room.

"I wanted to jump in and get to you to have that but... your loyalty and love for him is unbreakable. Your love for him is what I wanted, I wanted to have what you had with him. I wanted a girl that makes me happy to wake up every day, someone that won't take my shit, be hotheaded, argue back... helps me become a better man like you did for Harry. Someone that looks at me like you look at him... some that... loves me" his voice cracked as more tears fell. I just watched him feeling apart of me wanting to comfort him some how but the other side wanting to enjoy this.

He hurt you.

He enjoyed watching you suffer.

"I'm sorry" he whispered as I looked away feeling my hands shake. I wanted to act like it didn't hurt but, I couldn't help it. He reminded me of me before all of this. I was desperate for love. I want someone to love me for once.

All wasn't forgiven but, I did have empathy and a bit of sympathy for him through this. He looked at me after wiping his face and taking a deep breath watching me. "I fucked your life up" "You didn't" "So that video sent out was okay?" he demanded and his voice got a bit louder. I shook my head.

"It wasn't okay... It did mess up a lot but... thinking about it... it made me move to London. Now, i'm happy" "Because of Harry?" he asked and I nodded. Only thing that really hurt was my parents but hopefully maybe in a few days or week they'll cool off and we could try to talk this all out or something.

"Maybe this is why it all works out for him" he whispered out pulling me out of my thoughts as he played with him fingers. "Huh?" "Maybe it all works for him because he deserves it... I don't... I hurt people and do whatever I need to do to get what I want"

Maybe.

I just shrugged and he nodded. "I'm not saying this to get your pity at all but, I need you to understand how sorry I am" "Okay" I whispered. "And.. tell Harry i'm sorry too. I know it won't do anything but, I want him to know that" I nodded looking around unsure what to do now. That was it.

He explained it and now... a weight has been lifted abit. I just got up and he did too watching me. "I'm happy you came" he whispered and I nodded. "Me too" I whispered ready to head out but he was still watching me. "He's lucky to have you... I'm sorry I tried to come between it" I nodded "Thank you" I whispered not sure what else to say to him.

"Goodbye Zayn" I said then headed to the door. The nervousness that I had walking in was actually gone now. More or relief filled me surprisingly but a bit of sadness seeing him like that. I wasn't one to be happy at someones pain and this was the perfect example. But, the good thing was he accepted he was wrong and he took full responsibility.

You can breathe...

It's all over

I reminded myself walking out the door as all that weight lifted off of my shoulders.... then was slammed onto me once I saw Harry waiting outside for me.

Shit...

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