My Saving Grace (book 2)

June 6, 2025

A/N it gets a bit pg13 towards the end so ugh yeah there's that.... 😂😂

Scott's P.O.V.

I sat in bed for quite a while thinking about what had happened earlier. The guy had triggered me quite a lot! I hadn't had a panic attack that bad in maybe ten years. I've had a couple of panic attacks since we've had the kids but nothing as bad as what happened today. I could physically feel my brain shutting down while it happened.

I fell asleep at about six pm. The sleep was pretty deep considering I was exhausted. The panic and emotions had drained me to no end. I soon woke up. The room was dark. The curtains were pulled. I felt the warmth of Alex next to me.

I rolled over and grabbed my phone to check the time. Three am. I internally groaned, realising how awake I felt. I had sufficiently fucked up my sleeping schedule. I rolled back over onto my back and stared up at the ceiling. Realising that I would probably drive myself crazy if I lay here for the rest of the night, I decided to get up and watch TV.

I quietly got out of bed, careful not to disturb Alex and walked out to the sitting room. I sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. I turned the volume down so I could just hear it and began to flick through the channels. In the end I gave up on TV and turned on YouTube.

YouTube was twenty years old this year and was still as big as ever. And people said it would be on its way out as soon as the generation that watched us grew up. Well they were very wrong.

I found myself typing in SuperFruit and clicking on our channel. To be honest I couldn't believe we were still going. We barely missed an episode. We also had ten million subscribers which was crazy!

"Hey welcome to SuperFruit, the best show on the interent. My name is Palindrome." I heard my voice come through the speakers.

"And my name is acronym and together we...." Mitch began.

"Fuck with your mind." I finished.

"Fuck with your mind." Mitch repeated. I watched through the video as we joked around. I could remember filming this as clear as day. It was two days after Alex proposed to me.

I turned my head hearing footsteps in the hallway. Noah appeared in the doorway, rubbing his tired eyes with his fists. "Hey, little one. I didn't wake you did I?" I asked.

He walked towards me. "No, I couldn't sleep because you didn't kiss me good night tonight. You went to bed early." Noah pointed out. I lifted him to sit on my knee, his head falling against my chest.

"I'm sorry, little one. I was very tired today." I whispered, kissing his head. He nodded and nuzzled his head into my chest, my arms wrapping around him.

"It's okay." He whispered as another episode of SuperFruit came up on the screen. It was a more recent one this time. "Is that you and Uncle Mitchy?" He asked, his tired eyes drooping.

"Yeah. On SuperFruit." I told him. He nodded.

"Can I be on SuperFruit next week? You can ask me questions. You ask her your questions and she replies, her answers are lame but at least she tries. Colleens corner." Noah sang softly.

"Wrong internet show kiddo. But of course you can. I'll talk to Mitch." I said. Noah giggled softly.

"Oh yeah. Yours is: and now it's time for our weekly obsessions." He sang, giggling again when he finished.

"You're crazy kiddo. You should go back to bed though. It's very early." I whispered, kissing his head again.

"Can I stay down here? I promise I'll fall asleep but can I just stay with you?" He asked. I thought for a second.

"Sure thing. But you promise you'll close your eyes and try to get some sleep?" I asked and he nodded.

I continued to watch YouTube then going on to watch Tyler Oakley and then Miranda Sings. Noah quickly fell asleep, his little body sprawled along my chest. I ran my hand through his hair and reached over to turn the TV off. I then leant my head back against the couch and closed my eyes.

I knew I wasn't going to fall asleep but it was nice to take in the silence of the house. The only noises being the electronics plugged in in various room and the deep breaths of Noah.

I opened my eyes when I heard the door creak. Alex stood there smiling fondly at the both of us. He waved and I waved back, smiling. He came and sat down next to me. "I'm gonna go and put him to bed and then I'll be back." I whispered, lifting Noah into my arms. His head flopped onto my shoulder, the rest of his body a dead weight.

I placed him in his bed across from Toby's and kissed his forehead. I then proceeded to walk back downstairs. I sat back down on the couch, laying myself down so that my head was in Alex's lap and I was staring up at the ceiling.

He placed his left hand on my chest and I covered it with my two hands, holding it against my chest. He then moved his right hand to brush through my hair. I closed my eyes as my heart fluttered, his fingers trailing down my face and neck and to the collar of my shirt.

"You're so unbelievably beautiful and I'm still so overwhelmed to be able to call you mine. I love you so so much." Alex whispered. I felt my heart pounding as I opened my eyes.

"I love you too. You are the most amazing person in my life and thank you for yesterday. If you weren't there I would have punched him and regretted it. Or I would've completely broken down there and then." I admitted. He breathed in deeply and smiled.

"You're welcome, baby boy." He whispered. I released his hand and moved my hands up to his neck, pulling him down to meet my lips. It was soft and slow and sent butterflies flying around my body. His lips moved slowly and yet quickly at the same time, my mouth parting slightly as his left hand moved down my chest and under my shirt.

I began to move myself, propping my body up on my elbow so that Alex didn't have to bend as much. I used the hand that wasn't propping me up to tug at the hair at the nape of his neck. He moaned softly, sending vibrations through my entire body.

I moved again so now I was sat on his lap, my legs on either side of his waist as I knelt up slightly, making myself a little taller than him. Alex's hands were on my shoulders and sliding down my back to the area just above my ass.

I broke away to catch my breath and he quickly attached his lips to my neck. I moved my head to give him more access. Closing my eyes as his lips moved along my sensitive skin. His teeth tugged lightly on my skin as he began to suck on my sweet spot. It sent shocks of pleasure though my body, making me whimper. I bit my lip to hold back any noises which wanted to come out of my mouth.

"Your skin tastes like Parma Violets." Alex mumbled against my neck. I giggled, pulling my neck away so that his lips could rejoin mine again. I could feel Alex's boxers tightening under my ass.

"Someone's excited." I whispered, grinding my hips down a little. I felt Alex's hand grip my bicep as he tried to stifle a moan.

"Scott.... We can't do... this right nowww...." Alex whispered, his words breathy. I stopped grinding my hips, returning to kissing his lips, which were parted as he tried to catch his breath.

"Sorry... I got... carried... away." I whispered between kisses. I rested my forehead against his as he began to laugh. I smiled, listening to his laugh filled me up with life. It made me feel all warm and fluffy inside. Not that I wasn't feeling warm and fluffy inside after what just happened. His hand moved up to my cheek and slowly he ran his thumb along my cheek bone.

"I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too."