Just Saying ~Rants, Quotes, Etc.~

Sick and whats on my mind // B

Okay first im sick and second A im sorry im not here when you call.I worry about you all the time.I even talk to my mom about it and she gets annoyed because i wont shut up.A ive had the same thoughts. I think everyday what if i just end it all now.No one would miss me and i get to thinking youd miss me.If it wasnt for u id be another stupid teen reported on the news found dead.I know u probably hate me right now for saying all this and never telling you how i felt truly.You know wheni smile around everyone but u my smiles facke.I think about if i did something how it would affect you.i cry at the thoughts of you ever leaving me or me leaving you stuck here on this fucked up world.Im sorry if i say thangs that upset you.I feel as if im rabbleing and misspelling words left and right.Youll probably yell at me when you see this.I think your the only persons whos seen the real me.I want to see the real you some day.Flaws and all.A your the sister i always wanted in life but my mom couldn't cant and wont have another kid.You know im not religious but god mad us best friends because our parents couldn't deal with us as sisters.We may have our fights but one of us always apologiaes and we hug it out.I seem to be the that apologises.Ive harmed myself before and with you i think no i know i wont do it again.As you always say were both single pringles ready to not mingle.When i come over on your bday weekend well cuddle and watch any show you want.i dont care if the showll make us cry.Hell u dont care if it freak elmos world ill watch it with you.We can work on fanficts together,read fanficts and cry over them. A i love u and i dont wanna ever lose you.If u go i go.Ill follow u to the end if i have to.When i said friends for ever i mean it.LOVE YOU A!!!!!!

Just saying

-Beauty