Just Saying ~Rants, Quotes, Etc.~

summer break so far and my thoughts lately//B

So far summer break has been boring as hell. All I've done is help my mom, sleep, clean, and babysit. Nune of my friends call anymore or come over and see me. Nune of them actually hold a conversation with me on any social media. I understand A sick so she's excused. But what about my other friends that I know are just sitting around there houses bored or just hanging out with other friends at there houses doing nothing. They see my hi or hey or sup but they never reply. It sadens me that they don't won't to talk to me. I can't help feeling in annoying them And that they hate me. Hell they probably do and are sick of me. 😳😳😩😩 I feel like all of them are slowly slipping away and come 11 th grade next year there all gunna be gone and not there for me. I'm scared honestly. I'm afraid to lose them. This is the first time I've wrote or voiced in some form my true fear. I might say I'm scared of clowns,spiders,snakes,public spoons,and a slight fear of the unknown things in the dark but those are my real fears. There my tiny fears but my biggest is loseing the people closest to me and for my heart to be shattered more then it already it. I can't take it. I don't wanna lose my short one,L is what I'll call her. L is our sassy little devil who's not afraid to tell you as it is. She our momma Cas. There's A who's my tall and clumsy giant. Who always seems to be sick or some how hurting herself. She's the closest one to me. She's our little kookie.some people have started calling her that and sorry I started it and gave you the nickname. I'm afraid to lose her the most. There's c,our gay butterfly. He's always under great stress but never shows it. He'll put a smile on anyone's face. There's Ls boyfriend he's quite most of the time unless we're talking about thanks he's into or confused about. There's the Goth,M. She moved away tho. There's Da, she moved away too. They no longer talk to me so I already lost them two ig. There's V. No V is not a guy like BTS. She's the upcoming Sophmore. Well that is if she passed. There's B,he's our tall funny guy. He loves hugs and starburst. He gives me food. He's a goof listener too. There's AJ. Gah that girl is just a bundle of crazy but she's perfect the way she is. Her and B are together I think it's confusing with them two. There's P who is the upcoming Senior. She's younger then me but is sassy as hell. She loves to flick people off. She's got a gives no tucks attitude. She's pretty laid back until you piss her off. And then there's TNT. Those are her inituales so I'll call here by that name. She's pretty happy all the time though she can be quite stern with me and making me complete my English work. I don't think I could of made it this year if it wasn't for my friends help. I love all of them even if I never say it to some of them. There's dude. We just became friends before the break. I some how became her spirit animal and got the nickname lion because of my wild and frizzy hair. There's also Cat. She's cool. Even after I've dated her were still friends and I'm happy that we are. Yes I've dated a girl before lol. I miss them all and I wish I could go see one of them. A don't be mad when you rear this it's just going through my head. If I missed any one A message me. I'll fix it or you can if you want

Just saying.See all you human aliean or what ever you are beings later.
-Beauty