Down to You

9: Our Names in Blood

Taylor's POV:

It was maybe around 3am and I still couldn't get any sleep. I tossed and turned. And tossed again and nothing.

You would think it was my guilty conscious for fucking Hayley. A girl who I've known for only a week and was in a committed relationship.

But I just shake that off my shoulders. I really don't give a flying fuck about Josh and by her actions, she doesn't seem to care that much either. And let's be honest, if the chance presented itself again, I would take it. No doubt.

So no, that wasn't keeping me up at night.

I look over to see Jeremy fast asleep and wondered if he was dreaming.

And if he was, what would those dreams consist of.

Did he dream about music?

Like I once did.

Or

Does he dream of girls?

I smile to myself and sigh deeply.

Wanting nothing more than to shut off the world and just free fall into a pit of pillows and sheets.

A land where reality is not much different than the dreams I used to have;

A time when I had her.

Frustrated and annoyed, I roughly pull the sheets off body and sit up. I swing my legs off the side and stretch my arms over my head.

I hear the rain drops and the thunder from my window and I want to tear my ears right out of my head.

"Fuck." I say quietly as I pull my sweat pants over my boxers. I fumble for my leather jacket and slide my arms in. Not bothering to put on a shirt.

Maybe some fresh air would help me.

I walk out the room and softly shut the door behind me. Not wanting to wake anyone up.

I step into the dark living room and slide open the door to the balcony.

I walk out and inhale deeply.

The sky was covered in dark clouds, the moon was hiding behind all the chaos, the pavement was shining.

I used to love the sound of rain, now, now it's like bullets to my soul.

"Couldn't sleep?" A voice brings me out of my daze. I slightly jump and turn to see her sitting on one of the chairs.

I shake my head. "No."

I see her smile and take something in her mouth. I see her puff white smoke out and my cravings came back.

"You rebel child." She giggles and extends the box towards me.

I take one and take a seat on the chair next to her.

I put in between my teeth and light it up. Letting the nicotine flow through my lungs.

It was surprisingly soothing.

"I didn't know you smoke." I released some white smoke into the air.

"It's not my best habit." She smiles.

"Yeah, neither is being faithful." I smirk.

She chuckles. "Yeah well. Can you blame me? Just look at you." She says staring me up and down.

I laugh slightly and shake my head. "You're right. I'm pretty irresistible."

She bites her lip and looks forward again.

We stay in silence for a few minutes and I seriously hated it. I needed to distract my mind from going back to that night.

"So are we going to talk about this evening?" She says. And I sighed relieved.
"What about this evening?" I take a puff.

"Don't be an ass." She leans her head to the side.

I chuckle. "Alright then." I lean back into the chair. "Let's talk."

She rest her legs on the railings.

"What's happening with us?" She puffs on hers.

"Us?" I cock my eyebrow. "Hayley there is no 'us.' I'm just Taylor and you're just Hayley. We hooked up. Big deal. People hook up all the time."

I could see in her face that she was disappointed.

"Don't take it the wrong way or anything. But I'm not going to come into your life and save you from a relationship you clearly don't want to be in anymore. I'm not that guy. I'm the opposite of that guy. I'm the villain in this fairy tale." I look down to the floor.

"I'm not asking you for a fucken love story. I just want to know what this is."

I slowly bring my sight to look her in the eyes. "We're friends right?" she softly bites her bottom lip and nods. "Then let's just be that. Friends."

"With benefits?" Her eyebrow raises a little as she says that in a flirtatious manner.

I chuckle slightly.

"If you're ever in the mood, you know who to call." I wink as she laughs quietly and puts out her cigarette.

We stare into each other's eyes for longer than I would have liked.

Thunder roared and I frowned and looked away. Next the sky lite up like on the fourth of July.

Hayley smiled wide and closed her eyes.

She hummed contently. "I love the sound of rain and thunder."

I shake my head. "I hate it."

She turns her head and laughs. "What? Don't tell me you're scared of a little thunder?"

"More like bad memories." I say just under my breath.

My expression must have changed to a soft and pained one because Hayley looked at me with sympathy in her eyes.

I sighed and turned the other way.

"Hey," she says and touches my arm, "it's going to be okay."

I turn to her and smile. A genuine one this time.

"I know." I inhale deeply as her hold on my arm tighten.

"If you don't want to sleep alone during a thunder storm..." she softly bites down on her lip.

I laugh.

"Come on." I put out my cigarette and take her hand in mine as I lead us to her bedroom.

I shut the door behind us and lock it just to be safe.

I lay her on the bed and hoover her body.

"You sure about this?" She nods and pulls me down for a kiss.

I pull away. "Before we do this again Hayley, I need you to know that this is just physical. No emotions. Just sex"

She rolls her eyes. "That's all I'm asking for."

I smirk.

"Just remember, it's all fun and games until someone falls in love..."

*A/N: Hi there. I decided to do this quick update because just like them, I cant sleep... But heads up, I'm starting fall semester tomorrow so I might not be able to update this story as often as I'd like, but I would love to continue with this story. That is if you all still want to read. Anyways... Tell me how you're feeling about this story so far. Any theories? Comment or feel free to message me J

Love you all,

Miia.