My Thoughts

Pretending

Do you ever feel like things are not okay,

Everything is a mess in your head,

You just want to try and get away,

All you get is a heartache instead. 

Running from the misery and pain,

There is nothing left to gain,

It just hurts more and more,

As the days go by you just try to ignore,

You feel as if the world is closing all the doors. 

You promise yourself that this time is different,

But it all feels the same,

It's the same tango with a jazzy current. 

This one will last forever,

Who are you kidding you know it means nothing,

It's the same old tune you sing,

Your smiles decrease till it's never. 

Why do you get left alone,

You have many contacts but a silent phone,

Sorry the call has disconnected, 

No one even bothers leaving a message after the tone. 

You aren't surprised at all,

In fact it was expected to happen,

No one there to catch you when you fall.  

Trying harder and harder,

But your mess gets bigger and bigger,

Everything seems tougher and tougher. 

All you can do is hope,

You feel like a lost cause,

Your hands are bound by a coarse rope,

You wish to put your life on pause,

The remote is missing,

You are confused whether to rewind or forward,

To erase the past or leap to the future,

It keeps you guessing...

I'm so confused. 

I give up. 

There is nothing left to choose.