chasing happiness

chapter twenty-eight: if time could stand still

He laid me down on the couch and I pulled him in closer. Our breaths became fast paced and our thinking blurred. I ran my hands down his long muscular arms and shifted myself into a comfortable position. His touch was addictive. Everything in my body told me that acting upon this feeling was wrong and guilty but that's what made it so addictive. It was pulling me in even though letting go was a matter of one moment. It was like holding a piece of glass, one release so simple but the results so devastating. I could not loosen my grip of this glass.
I closed my eyes in bliss as I concentrated on the movement of his fingers on my body. They started at the hip and ever so carefully caressed up. I heard his breath hitch as our lips broke free from lack of oxygen. I do not know whose air I was breathing, only that it could never be enough.
I kicked off my heels in order to pull myself up onto the soft surface. His shoes were off too as he climbed on top of me. I was not scared of his touch anymore. In fact it was starting to feel like home. My body no longer tensed at his touch in fear or disgust like the first night he tried holding my hand. And to think we started off simply faking feelings.
They say time can erase most anything and I think that to be true. The familiarity of Harry's hands on my body were soon replaced with his. As if someone new claimed it. When I felt his delicate fingers slid up my shirt and onto my skin it sent a feeling unparalleled to any other.
I wanted him, more than anything. Everything from who he was to how he looked to how he treated me made me want him. I know of course there is more to a person than good looks, and for Adam that definitely applies, but there was no doubt that his features alone were enough to make me want him in bed. This was a new feeling however. Sure I had got with other males but only out of love for the person or the want to experience the feeling. This was very different. Yes of course love is and should be the deciding factor as to whom a girl undresses for, but he made me feel something else. I honestly cannot be explained in any other way than that of human instinct. He just felt right and good and someone I wanted to share with in passing on life. I know this sounds crazy and probably stupid but at the moment it was my thought process. I would give anything to take a look inside his.
Our movements combined together so nicely. Yes we were both clumsy and long legged and awkward, but that awkwardness fit together in a weird way. To me there was nothing more sweeter and more passionate than our lips clumsily pushing against the others. It was more a smashing of mouths than a kiss. I couldn't help but smile as we attempted to kiss. This always made him laugh at my pathetic attempts but I could care less. Time had a way of stopping for us.
"I'm not so sure now is a good time," I breathed as I felt his bear like hands go up to my chest from beneath my shirt.
"And why is that?" He said with a sexy grin as he leaned down to kiss me again.
As if perfectly timed like some romantic comedy, Karlie came busting through my New York City apartment door.
"HELL.... Oh." She came in with a flamboyant stride not once thinking to knock or even send me a text saying she was on her way.
Adam quickly pulled his hands from under my shirt and jump off of me as I watched his face grow a burning pink.
"Karlie!" I said unable to contain my laughter.
"Wow okay didn't know I would walk in on you guys!" She said laughing as well.
Karlie gave Adam, who was still not finding the situation particularly funny, a devious smirk and then followed me into my bathroom. There she helped me touch up my makeup and prepare for the evening.
"So, you two seem comfortable." She smirked again obviously wanting to talk scandalous with me but I tried to brush it off.
"Yeah, it's been nice having him here." I stated simply, but Karlie kept nudging me.
"I think he's crazy for you, you know." She hinted as if she knew something I did not.
I just smiled and applied my red lipstick. She made herself at home as usual and we quickly moved on to other matters.
"Okay so I called Gigi and her and a few friends are coming over too if that's okay?" She asked happily as we prepared dinner.
"Yeah like who?" I asked casually.
"You know, the usual." She said not even bothering to make eye contact as she tidied up her lips as well.
We had a fun time. My girl friends came and a few of Adams friends showed up too. We laughed and talked and baked food and had a good time. It was times like these I wanted to cherish forever. I quickly grabbed my phone and snapped a shot at the scene in front of me laughing like like everyone else. Most the time I never had a camera on me, moments were too precious and taking pictures was more often than not a waste of time. But I desperately wanted to hold on to this.

Soon everyone departed and we said our final goodbyes. I curled up on the couch with Adam before bed. It was our last night together in New York. Tomorrow I would leaving for tour, and he would be off to Vegas to do what he does best, entertains. I snuggled my small frame close to his. I felt his gentle hand stroke my hair.
"I'm going to miss you." I said in a barely audible whisper.
"Me too, but it won't be forever." He said as he tilted my chin up and placed a small kiss on my soft lips. It was sweet. It wasn't heated or messy just soft and comforting. I began to scroll through the photos of the night.
"This ones my favorite." I said as he looked over my shoulder.
"But it's all blurry." He chuckled.
It featured him, Karlie and Gigi mid laugh in a beautiful black and white tint. I then realized the photo was a blurry mess. We were all too busy laughing in the kitchen over burnt cookies to pose and smile. I liked it best that way though. My favorite people all smiling in my kitchen. It was then I came to the conclusion that if time could stand still it would be now, with the people I love and no plans for leaving the next day. I would not mind

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Hey everyone this is really short I'm sorry! I just want to catch up bc ITS ALMOST FALL AND I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT FALL!! Anyways random Chasing Happiness fun fact, this whole fan fic has been inspired by the wonderfully charming album "Dream Your Life Away" by Vance Joy (WHO I MET LAST MONTH OMG) and yeah if anyone wondered what inspires me... No one does but..