I Needed Her

Chapter Five

Riley decided to call Maya after the date with Lucas, the phone ringing only a few times before Maya picked up, "what." Maya said flatly as she picked up the phone.

"I had fun." Riley giggled through the phone.

"I'm sure you did. Did his lips taste like a diddly cowboy pop." Maya hissed through the phone.

Riley didn't speak instead the line went dead.

"Yeah you thought I didn't know did you?"

"I'm sorry Maya. I just I don't know if I like you that way." Riley said.

"Yeah, I know. I was a complete idiot to think I could even trust you."

"You're not a idiot Maya. You'll never be an idiot. It's just this is one of those experiments that people have when they are younger. Thats all. It was just a phase." Riley tried to explain.

"So thats what I am to you? A lab rat? A experiment, really Riley. I thought at least you were better than everyone. I thought I could have a little hope in even still being friends but I don't think lab rats like me get along with big fat hopeless chump cats like you." Maya said before clicking off the phone.

Riley sighed as she set her phone down on her bed, "I really screwed up this time." She sighed and pulled out her journal and began to write. 'I want to talk about it with someone but I can't talk to Lucas about this. He would just get mad. And Farkle is always busy with his 10th grade friends since he skipped a grade in 8th grade year. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what i'm going to say to Maya tomorrow at school that is if she even comes to school tomorrow. Why do I even care. I mean i'm only in 9th grade and there's two people I know love me, Lucas. The boy I love the one who he has a wonderful face, a kind heart, a thousand horses back home, and I can be happier than happy with him around. Then there's Maya. She's like my best friend and I don't want to love her like I love Lucas, but I do. I can always be myself around Maya and i'm never scared or nervous around her. She's always been there for me, no matter what it is. Like in 7th grade when I found out pluto wasn't a planet and she helped me through it. I was really attached with pluto but the point is she's always there for me. She's always with me. She needs me and I need her. Well I think just by writing this I know who to choose. I'll tell Lucas tomorrow. And I'll talk to Maya tomorrow at school. If she doesn't show too school I'll just tell her at her house.

Riley finished writing and put her journal back under her pillow, "i'm sorry Maya. I promise to make it up to you." She said before laying down and closing her eyes going into a quick sleep.

Maya was standing looking into the bathroom mirror, her mother wasn't home she wasn't coming home until sunday. Maya looked into the mirror long and hard crying before she wiped her eyes and went into her room pulling out a piece of paper and her favorite sky blue pen. Beginning to write on the sheet on lined paper.

Dear people. Well Dear only a few people. Riley, Mom, and Farkle.

I'm sorry. It's just i've been bottling things up so long and I finally had enough and I have had no one at home to help me. No one to teach me things. Mom, mother whatever you are to me I love you no matter what and it's not really your fault. I could have easily talked to a teacher but I was just never comfortable with that. So please don't be sad over this look at it as a way into your acting. You can explore more, go. Go and run and never stop. I love you mom.

Farkle. My dear best friend and partner in crime. I love you never forget that. You have always made me laugh, always. Your made me giggle at times I shouldn't have like that time when we were helping that little kid find his parents but you kept making me laugh, I don't know how maybe it was just your face. It's something about you that makes me really happy, so I wanted to make sure I didn't leave you without saying goodbye and I love you so Farkle I love you. Goodbye my science buddy never give up on your dreams like me.

Now on to Riley. Remember when I said I would always lie to you aslong as it made you happy, well I said that friendship is more important than the truth but same thing unless it was something like life or death. Well now is that life or death, I love you. I love you to the ends of the fucking world I love you as far as it is here to get to Pluto. I will never leave your side even when i'm gone I will watch you from heaven, hell or wherever I go I will find a way to get to you. I promise you I always will. I am sorry, but I have to say the truth. I am doing this because of Cowboy Lucas. I let the jealousy get the best of me and yeah thats bad and i'm sorry but just know I love you and I want you to be happy and you can't be happy if i'm around so goodbye Riley have a beautiful life.

~Love Maya Hart

Maya sighed as she looked at the letter she had just wrote and walked into the bathroom leaving the note on the bed she pulled a bottle of sleep aid pills and took them into her room along with the cup of water she filled when she got home, "i'm sorry." She cried as she took the bottle of pills and pours about a handful of them into her palm placing a few in her mouth at a time swallowing with the water, continuing until the ones in her palm were gone. Then laying in her bed she pulled the covers over her and placed the note on her bed stand before closing her eyes.

AN- TBC Just know that. Comment your thoughts if she'll survive. I don't know why I keep saying comment when it's not gonna happen anyways enjoy the story.