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Forgive me

Imprinting on Paul was more amazing than all the wolves had described to me. I felt so connected to him that I never wanted to leave his arms. Although the connection was strong, I felt sad betrayed; Paul was my imprint and he hadn't spoken up when Tammy was taunting me. Paul knew what he had done, his eyes showed sadness, he was also confused. Paul looked away, "I loved her, I was so confused because I thought she loved me too Genie" he held me tighter."She never loved me, I know that now and I also knew she wasn't my imprint but I wanted her to be". He looked so sad and it broke my heart to see him like this."I was so mad at her for being so mean to you and I wanted to hurt her so badly, I wanted her for pay for what she had done to you and then kiss all your pain away but I couldn't". "I'm so sorry he mutters before he walks through the trees in to my front yard. He knocked on my door and placed me on my feet. As soon as my dad opened the door I squeezed past him and ran to my room and locked the door behind me. I lay on my bed and wrapped my arms around me, letting the tears escape my eyes for the hundredth time today. I was trying to process all the unnecessary drama that had happened today.

NEXT DAY

I wake up to the sound of my window being opened. Startled, I sit upright in my bed to see Paul half way through my window."What the fuck?!" I say out loud, causing Paul to fall face first in to the floor. I quickly cover my mouth and gesture to under my bed, "quickly hide" I whisper and he crawls under my bed before my dad knocks on the door."Is everything alright Genie" dad opens the door."Just shocked by my bed hair" I chuckle and run my hand through the lump of knots on my head called hair. Dad raises his eyebrow and steps in, leaving my door ajar."Are you sure everything is okay? Yesterday must have been very hard to process" he asks awkwardly, generally concerned. I notice my dads concern and drop my hand."Yeah, I'm fine, its just very weird for me, obviously, but I just need some time; I will be alright" I give him a reassuring smile. Dad gives me a look of relief, "I love you okay?" he exits, closing the door behind him.

Paul pokes his head out and gives me a goofy smile, causing me to laugh. He crawls out from under the bed and sits beside me. "I came to check on you" he lowers his voice"."Because I know that I've hurt you and that hurts me" he looks down and his hands in his lap."And I'm so sorry... I want you to be happy, I want to be the one that makes you happy but I'm a failure". I see his eyes become glassy and slip my hand in to his."I hate myself so much because I hurt you Genie, I hate myself because you hurt yourself, you deserve to imprint on someone better like Seth"."But instead you got a stupid mistake like me" a tear rolls down his cheek but he quickly wipes it away."Paul you are not a mistake, not in my eyes, I'm so glad I got you instead of Seth because you are everything I could ever want" I pull him in to me and wrap my arms around his neck."Fuck, you really hurt me Paul, but I forgive you okay? So you need to forgive yourself" I cry, burying my face in to his neck. He then turns away; I see his whole body shiver before he turns back and says "I will never be able to forgive myself". I then take his face in my hands and rest my forehead against his."Please..." I whisper and wipe the stray tears from his cheeks. He gives me a gentle nod and puts his arms around my waist and pulls me foreword. We lay together in a comfortable silence before Paul falls asleep in my arms and I gently place a kiss against his cheek and also fall asleep.