Nothing Was Ever The Same

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February 9th
Aubrey just landed I decide to go pick him up.It was two in the morning I waited five minutes near a Delta then he walked to the car.

Me:hey Aubrey.
Aubrey:hey

He kissed me on my neck.

Me:Do you want to go by my place?
Aubrey:No I'm tired and I have to a lot to do before I fly back out to LA at ten.

I started driving towards.

Aubrey:What was so important that you couldn't tell me over the phone.
Me:I'm pregnant.

I felt this big wave of weird tension between us he didn't hold my hand anymore.

Drake:Are you really pregnant?
Me:Yes I went to the Doctor again and took five more at home test all of them told me positive.
Drake:This isn't what I planned on.
Me:You think I wanted to have another kid.
Drake:Why didn't you just tell me this shit over the phone.
Me:This the type of situation where you need to talk face to face.
Drake:My career.
Me:If you don't want to be involved fine with me I have a stable job to take care of my kids.
Drake:at a fucking strip club?
Me:I work at a hospital now full time.

He stared at the road.

Drake:Sometime I let my instinct take over me and the night I met you my instinct told me something was different about you.But you like the other girls I dated they use me.
Me:I never used you ,you bought that shit on your own but you can have all your shit back.Your benz ,condo, and money.I'll be out in two days I'm done with you.

I stop the car.I grabbed my purse then I got out.I started walking.

Drake:where are you going?You know your five miles away from your house.And its fifteen degrees.

I started crying.I walked to a cab then he drove me to my Condo.I walked in I dropped all my things.
I Went to on internet and I searched for apartments in Toronto.

I packed my clothes up in a bin.Then I packed Amelia clothes up.

She was still over José's with Tia.

I put everything by the door.By the time I finish it was eight in the morning.I called a realtor to get me a apartment I went to a 3 bedroom townhouse.It was really nice looking everything was updated I signed the papers.I have to wait a day or so for them to accept the offer.I had my neighbor live in New York ship everthing here.So my funiture and my car will be here soon.I bought Me and Amelia a furniture for the new place.Then I got a new phone.

I went to José.

José:whats wrong?
Me:Im so done with him he can have his car and condo back I don't want it.
José:he didn't take it well.
Me:no but he didnt have to tell me that I'm like every girl he dates they use him.He offered me that shit I didnt need it.

I keep pacing back and forth.

José:listen I'll help with What ever you need.You need to relax your pregnant.
Me:ok .

I sat down on the couch . José tried to comfort me until I cried myself asleep.