Nothing Was Ever The Same

Mixed Emotions

February 7, 2014

The fact I learned that I'm having another child I mean Im happy but with some mixed emotions . it's a lot to think about. I Feel bad because I haven't talk to Drake in a few days.I still haven't told him.
I just got a real job at the hospital as an nurse a couple days ago.and now I'm with Rico and Amelia shopping for scrubs for work.

I finally got home Amelia was tired and I decided to call Aubrey.

Me:hey
Aubrey:hey you haven't talk to to me in a couple of days what's up?
Me:are you back in Toronto?
Aubrey:no I'm in L.A. What's wrong.
Me:when you come back I have yo tell you something.sooner the better but don't rush on it take your time.
Aubrey:let's talk on the phone.
Me:I would never tell this on the phone it's not appropriate to talk about it on the phone.I rather do it in person.
Aubrey:ok well I'll be home like in two days or so.
Me:ok how's LA.
Aubrey:good actually.
Me:that's good.
Aubrey:how's was your day?
Me:great me and Amelia went to the mall.to get some chicken and waffles today.shes so silly.
Aubrey:tell her I said hey.
Me:she's sleep now like always.
Aubrey:already.
Me:yep she played in the middle of the mall.
Aubrey: Im recording a song I'm going to call you back later.
Me:ok love you.
Aubrey:love you back.

I watched tv.then It came across saying Jhene Aiko is carrying Drake child and she's two months.everyone knows that the media is always wrong.I ignored it.I got ready to go to bed.then I got a phone call from José.

José

José:hey where are you?
Me:home.why??
José:remember I'm going on a date with Daniel tonight.and I wanted you to watch Tia tonight.
Me:ok bring her is she sleep?
José:no she's wide awake.
Me:ok Amelia is asleep.
José:Tia should be gone to sleep in a second.
Me:ok
José:ok

José met me in the hallway.

José

I dropped Tia off then I met Daniel down stairs.he had some flowers.I kissed him on the side of his cheeks.

Daniel:hey Angelic
Me:hey Danny where are you taking me to?
Daniel:a surprise.
Me:ok

He drove and we pulled up a hotel.we went to the rooftop.

Daniel:so you never told me what you do as in a job or career.
Me:would you still love me the same if I tell you.
Daniel:what is it?
Me:I'm an exotic dancer.
Daniel:ok what's wrong with that.
Me:I have been rejected from so many people because I'm a striper.
Daniel:If your fine with I'm fine with it.i don't care if your a dancer or not.and by the way I love you even more.
Me:really.
Daniel:yes.im glad you told me.beside I like you a lot.you don't meet a beautiful 23 year old in college and at 29 Im looking for someone to settle down with and travel with and especially love.

Music started playing I grabbed his hand then we started dancing.

Me:this is a beautiful view.
Daniel:only for a beautiful woman.
Me:you make me smile everyday.
Daniel:Would you like something to eat?
Me:yes.

We fed each other.

Daniel:I have a gift for you.

I open the long box.it was a diamond bracelet.

Me:I can't accept this.
Daniel:and I can't accept it back.
Me:ok I'll take it thanks.
Daniel:I have to ask something .
Me:yes
Daniel:I really like you like Obsessed with you I would love if we could be a couple?
Me:yes I would love to be your girlfriend.
Daniel:I'm excited about this

I kissed him.we watch the fire in the fire place.

Me:don't we have to be out of by a certain time.
Daniel:when I stop running the place.
Me:you own this one too.
Daniel:yes I do.
Me:how much do you love me?
Daniel:I love you so much I would love to make some babies tonight.
Me:your too funny but no.
Daniel:When am I going to meet you family?
Me:I don't really have any family beside my sister and brother.my parents died when I was sixteen.
Daniel:my dad left my mom for a piece of trash.when he died he left everything to me.i love my mom she's my everything.
Me:my dad died when I was 3 then my mom died when I was 16.i never see them.
Daniel:what happen?
Me:I was kidnapped.
Daniel:what are you going to school
Me:to become a accountant
Daniel:question?
Me:yes Danny
Daniel:are you open to having kids?
Me:definitely.I have a little one.
Daniel:awh how old.
Me:she is three old.
Daniel:how cute.
Me:I love her more than the world.
Daniel:I bet most parent love their children like a diamond.
Me:yes some.

I walked over to the balcony.I took a deep breath at the beautiful view.then Daniel wrapped his arm around me.

Daniel:you know you can trust me?
Me:yes I know.
Daniel:what's wrong?
Me:you remind me so much of my daughter father.
Daniel:is it good or bad?
Me:good like you make me feel so secure around you.and I can be myself around you.I can tell you anything.you remind a lot of him he was a good man.
Daniel:what happened?
Me:someone set him up and killed him.
Daniel:did they find the person?
Me:no
Daniel:I'll help you find that person?
Me:no it was year in a half ago.
Daniel:you deserve justice.
Me:I'm starting new.

I took a sip of my wine.

Daniel:you know they say its ok to cry every once in a while.I can tell you that you haven't cried in a while.
Me:I try to stay strong for my baby and me.I do what I have to do.
Daniel:I'm a man .I cry myself every once in a while.it help me to feel better.

I let all of my thoughts about Tia dad travel through my head.I started crying.Daniel wrapped my in his arms and rubbed my back.

Me:I'm sorry.I messed you suit up.
Daniel:that's why there's a dry cleaner.come with me I want to take you to the private media room.

We walked to the media room.and we watched the movie "About last night".I went to sleep.

Daniel:do you want to go home?
Me:I want to stay here I don't feel like going home.
Daniel:Ok I'll take you to the penthouse.
Me:ok

I looked at the time 12:00am.I was talking for four hours.we went to the penthouse.

Me:this is beautiful.but it's only you in this huge penthouse.
Daniel:I'm trying get that special somebody to fill in the space.
Me:can I get a set of clothes.
Daniel:sure.

I went to the other room.and changed then I sat down on the couch.

Daniel:I really love you.
Me:I really like you too.
Daniel:I can tell what your thinking?
Me:what am I thinking then.

He kissed me.I couldn't denied the kiss.

Daniel:your words are telling me no.but you mind and body want me to love you.but you keep rejecting me.why don't you let me love you?

I kissed him on the cheek.I seriously don't know but I'm sleepy.I went to sleep.I woke up and washed up.I got out the shower wrapped the towel around me.

Daniel:here's some clothes for you I got these for you.
Me:thanks.
Daniel:your welcome . I'm going to take you home.I have a business meeting.
Me:ok
Daniel:ok well let's go.
Me:ok

He drove home.he walked me to my door.

Me:thanks Danny.
Daniel:your welcome Angelic.

I kissed him on the lip.then I went inside of my apartment.I seen India.

Me:hey
India:hey did you enjoy yourself.
Me:yeah whats wrong?
India:I'm pregnant.

My heart dropped.I ran and I hugged her.

Me:Its going to be ok.
India:i dont know.