fallen - book one

pills and lube - nine

Madison's POV

It hurts.

My body is aching, but it's more of a mental pain. I'm not physically in pain, but my mind is making me feel pain.

And it's fucking horrible.

See how easy it is?

"Who said that?" I looked around.

It's me, silly. I guess you aren't as smart as I thought you were.

"Who are you?" I questioned, looking around once more.

I'm you.

"Y-your me?" I questioned, still not understanding what was happening.

Back to my point.

"Go away, your hurting me." I could feel my body starting to throb.

I'm here because your afraid.

"Of what?"

Losing it. You don't want this to end like last time. But sweetheart, you can't control yourself while I'm here.

"What?" I was completely confused.

Someone has been forgetting to take their medicine.

"I don't need it anymore." My eyes were screamed shut, the pain was unbearable.

Of course you need it, your a freak. A worthless piece of shit. Your fucked up in so many ways. Now I suggest you head home before they find you. Tell them you just stayed home, wouldn't want the to think your a freak now would you?

I quickly made my way back down the tree, the pain started to fade.

As soon as I got home I locked myself in my room, going into my closed in one of my shoe boxes in the very back. I opened it and it revealed about twenty pill bottles. I had been stashing them away, hoping no one would find them. Mom was the only one that knew about this, but she's dead.

So I have no one left.

I opened one of the bottles from this month, taking out four pills and then putting the box under my bed.

I sat on my bed as the years streaked down my face, swallowing the pills and laying back down in bed.

This is for your own good.

Michael's POV

We had just talked to Madison's dad, he informed us that she was sleeping in her bed. It made us all feel a million times better, knowing she was okay.

Luke had apologized, multiple times. I had to explain the story to Calum, and that resulted in him- once again- beating the crap out of Ashton.

-

I ended up in Madison's room, watching her sleep peacefully under the mounds of covers. She hadn't waken up at all, maybe she didn't get enough sleep?

"Michael, you've been here all day." Calum's sighed. "At least play FIFA with me instead of watching my little sister sleep." He rolled his eyes.

"Sure." I replied.

After a few hours of playing FIFA, a figure had plopped down on my lap. "You suck at FIFA Michael." Madison smiled, moving to sit next to me. I motioned for her to sit in between my legs, so she moved again, and laid against my chest.

"Wanna try?" I asked her. She nodded her head as I handed the controller to her, Calum gave me his and said he had to run out.

"Wow." I said, after she beat me for the third time in a row.

"Well having Cal as my brother is a plus." She giggled, kissing my cheek.

"That's not fair, you cheated." I whined.

"Or maybe you really suck at FIFA." She laughed again.

"Wanna play down thing else?" I asked her.

"Mario!" She smiled, she hopped up going over to Calum's shelf of games for his Wii, PS3, and XBOX. "But were playing on the Wii, it's easier." She shrugged.

"Move your hand." I whined.

"What!" She shouted, standing up.

"I still won't huh?" I smirked.

"Ugh, don't talk to me anymore." She pouted, crossing her arms over her chest.

"Aww, boo bear don't do that." I whined, pulling her on top of my lap.

"Boo bear?" She giggled.

"Yep, your my boo bear." I smiled.

"And your a cheesy bastard." She smiled.

"Whatever, you love it." I pretended to throw my hair in her direction.

"I am home!" Calum announced. "Madison did you beat Michael at FIFA?" He asked.

"Course." She smiled.

"That's my girly!" He said in a high pitched girl voice, and it caused us to laugh.

"I'm starting to question if Calum plays for the other team." Madison murmured.

"Malum is the real OTP." I said, Calum pinning me down the the floor and pretending to thrust into me.

"Calum, it's the other way. You trust into his Ass, he doesn't have a vagina." Madison corrected.

"Michael, get on all fours, it's about to get kinky." Calum said.

"I have some lube if ya need it." Madison said.

"Seriously?" I asked, she nodded. "How?"

"My boyfriend left some over after I found out he was gay." She shrugged.

"Isn't that stuff flavored." Calum asked.

"I think it's strawberry or something, I have no clue." She giggled.

"This is so weird." I said, still on all fours.

"I'm actually turned on." Madison shrugged.

"Really?" I asked.

"No you fucker." She rolled her eyes.

-

"Don't stop talking." Madison said suddenly. She was laying on my chest, on the hammock.

"Why?" I asked.

"I don't know, I just like hearing you talk." She said quietly.

"Is everything alright?" I asked her.

"Yeah." She said not meeting my eyes.

"Babe, tell me." I whispered. My hand was rubbing her bare back, her shirt had come up.

"Nothing Michal." She whispered back.

"Please?" I begged.

"I-" she started, but was interrupted by the sprinklers coming on. It was 9:00 at night, and I have no idea what we were doing out here.

I walked her up to her bed, and kissed her forehead. "Goodnight." I smiled, but before I could leave she grabbed my arm.

"Stay with me, please?" She asked.

"Of course." I smiled, she scooted over and patted the space beside her. I slipped my shoes of and too my shirt off; before I pulled her into my chest, she cuddled into it instantly.

"Thanks Mikey." She looked up at me, smiling.

"Of course." I smiled. And in the moment, I knew I fell in love with this broken girl.

And I couldn't do anything about it.

-

Team Ashton, Team Michael, or Teak Luke?

I'm on Team Michael rn bc AWWW FEELS!

And who liked Jet Black Heart? MICHAEL SOUNDS AMAZING AS ALWAYS.