Unthinkable

Chapter 13 :

I stand here and question myself. What is the real reason behind the word love? . I couldn't just watch around and wait for it to hit me in the face. I needed proof . I just don't know where to look .

"Everyone". Cameron stands on the stage. I was next to him , our fingers interlock.

People all over started to stare into our direction. I wasn't prepared on what he was about to say.

He turns to face me.

"Emily , you are beyond beautiful. I sometimes can't believe how lucky I am to have you". He smiles."I know I can be an ass". Throats from all over started to clear which made us all laugh.

"But I love you, I do , you're the one I think about before going to bed , and the one I can't wait to see early in the morning". He continues.

He was actually pouring out his heart to me.

"I am happy that you said yes". He leans in and cups my face with his addictive palms. Placing his lips on mine. I kiss back with passion.

I loved him. I knew I did , but I also hated him in every way . If you understand what I mean ?.

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We arrived back to my apartment. Landing on the couch and turning on the tv. I couldn't help but wonder what was on his mind. I couldn't stop staring at his face and then the tv again .

"Cam , I want to talk". I say to him softly.

He immediately turns to face me. Giving me his full attention.

"Yes?". He answers placing his right hand on my thigh.

"Everything has been going perfect you know ? , and I don't want to ruin it but , I think I'm getting cold feet". I say in all honesty .

"Cold feet ? As in you don't want to go through with the wedding?". He asks. I give him a nod and he stands up. Pacing back and forth the room."Why?".

I shrug."Even though you say it's real , I still feel like everything is just fake and I don't know how to change my mind from that".

"Emily , you couldn't have told me this at the engagement party ? When we were basically surrounded by everyone ? I could of told them the wedding was off". He grunts taking a seat on the couch again . This time a bit further from me.

Wow. Way to go Em.

"You were happy , I didn't want to ruin it". I turn my head away from him.

"I thought you were happy too but I'm guessing I was wrong?".

"You left me Cameron , and started treating me like shit , what happened? Why are you even here ? Because you think there's a possibility I might be having sex with your cousin ?". I lash out at him.

"I realized my mistakes and wanted to fix it , I wanted to make sure you got home safe , is that wrong of me?". He questions leaning closer to me.

"It's not wrong , just why put on this show for people , is it worth it?". I question him.

"I want you , and I'm telling you I do".

The words lingered off his tongue and once again I felt trapped for him.

He leans in closer and kisses me passionately. Slowly pulling me onto his lap. I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him closer to me. Grinding back and forth on his lap.

He starts placing tiny kisses along side my neck. Making my body tingly from the butterflies it was causing.

"Tell me this is real". I whisper against his ear.

He rips my dress off of my body. Gripping my waist and pulling me closer to his hard chest. A slight moan escapes from my lips.

"This is real". He whispers to me.

I unbutton his shirt , taking it off and throwing it on the floor. No care in the world as I felt his warmness against me. I kiss him hard , as if I was longing for his kiss. Or the taste of vodka on his tongue .

Was he drunk ?.

He takes his pants off , along with his boxers. I felt his print throbbing against me. Ripping my lace panties. He picks me up and places me onto his face. Holding onto the top of the couch I grind against his warm tongue.

Every lick , every twirl , every thrust, sent chills down my spine. I felt myself about to cum. I moan loudly . My body shaking . I was cumming and he knew what he was doing to me.

Helping me down from his face , he places himself inside of me. Looking into my eyes as he thrusts deeper and harder . I bite down on his gasping lips.

"I love you Emily". He groans as he increases his speed.

I tried to say I love you back but the words weren't forming and my body was being pleased. I didn't know words in that moment.

"Shit". He moans slamming me down harder onto his hard groin. He held me there as I felt his body shiver and shake. Kissing me softly and laying me down on the couch . He begins to make love to me .

Before I knew it , again he started to shake and shiver. Gripping my body and sucking passionately at my neck.

"Cam". I call to him."Are you releasing yourself inside of me ?". I look into his eyes.

"I am, you told me you were on the pill right?".

"No...".

In that moment I didn't know if I was suppose to cry or scream. Did he have sex with someone else? , did he honestly cheat on me?.

I push him off of me and run to the shower. I started to cry . My body felt numb to all the lies. I sat on the shower floor. Letting the water run on my body .

After scrubbing for what seems like forever. I wrap myself into a towel and walk out my room to tell Cameron to get out . When I got to the living room , he was there , on the couch , with his face buried into his hands.

"I need you to leave". I sternly say to him.

"Em , I did not cheat on you". He jumps up."I don't think I could ever do that".

"You probably did , thinking I had sex with your cousin , you probably did it". I yell at him.

He comes closer to me but I take a step back . At this point I wanted nothing to do with him.

"I didn't , trust me". He pleads.

"How can I ?". I sigh."all you do is lie to me".

"But I couldn't lie about this, really? I been busy , I don't have time for that , honestly".

I don't know why but every bone in my body started to trust him. He steps closer to me and this time I let him. Holding me in a tight embrace he kisses my forehead.

I need sleep.

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