Fifty Shades of Friends (book 1) j.g.

Chapter 21- Baby Steps

EMMA'S POV

All of the guys and I were now on the plane, flying to their next stop on the tour which was Naples, FL. I was so excited because my older brother, Brock lives there and I barely get to see him, even though he is one of my most favorite people in the world. I was excited for him to meet Cam and the other guys. And yes, even Jack.

As I sit back in my seat, trying to relax, I feel a tap on my shoulder from the seat behind Cam, Nash, and I's row of seats. I turn my head and see Jack giving me a sympathetic, somewhat, puppy face. I don't think he was necessarily even knowing he was making such a face, but if he did, he knew how to get to me with it. He motions with his finger to follow him and I roll my eyes.

I watch him stand up in his seat and walk to the back of the plane where the bathroom was. Before getting up myself, I check to see how occupied Cameron was beside me and him and Nash we both sleeping. Thank God too because Nash is such a good friend to Cameron, he would probably report to him if I was acting suspicious.

I sneak out of my seat and make my way up the aisle holding my arms close into my body, trying not to touch anyone. I was really claustrophobic so I was pretty uncomfortable. Half way to the back, someone grabs my arm, keeping me from going anywhere. I look down, startled to see Taylor.

"Have fun." He winks with a smirk and I become stunned.

"Excuse me?" I whisper trying not to draw attention.

"Sammy told me what you little nashties do behind Cam's back!" He laughs dirtily.

I roll my eyes and huff, frustrated as I whip my arm out of his grasp and continue my way to the bathroom. I knock gently on the door to let Jack know it was me. When he opens up, I'm immediately grabbed by the wrist and pulled inside. The door quickly shutting behind me and next thing I know, I'm being pressed up against the wall of the small space, Jack's tongue down my throat. I didn't struggle to object either. Why is that you ask? As I admitted my position before, I'm in love with him. And if this is as much as I was going to get for who knows how long, I'll take it and hold onto it while I continue playing the angry me. Because, yes, I was still pissed at him, but you can't stay mad at someone who you love, no matter if it's friends or even family.

The kiss was rough as he takes both of my wrists in one of his hands, and restrains them above my head, while his other hand continues to wonder under the bottom of my shirt. The soft, seductive feeling of his hand touching me roughly, aroused me and I wanted him to do more.

"Please forgive me." He whispers raspy-voiced in my ear, nibbling on my neck.

That's when I come down from cloud 9 and realize the reality of what was happening. He's getting his way just by kissing me. I can't show him my words mean nothing, and that he can fix anything just by a kiss. A rough, sexy, arousing, kiss...

I push him off of me and back up one step since it was such a small space. "No Jack." I state blankly and cross my arms, stand off-ish. "You can't just fix everything just by kissing me."

"Kissing you with passion and meaning. It's what I do best. I express how much I'm sorry and how much I love I have for you through a kiss. I'm not good with words. You knew that from day 1 of being my best friend." He laughs hesitantly and nervously towards his final words.

"I can't see how someone can say they love someone, then go bang another random slut in another state, then try and say they're sorry and they love me again. No... just no." I shake my head continuing to cross my arms.

He runs his fingers through his hair looking down, probably trying to come up with his next move.

"Em-"

"Save it." I huff and exit the bathroom and hastily walk back to my seat.

When I return to my seat, Cameron wakes up and looks at me groggily with a smile.

"Hey baby."

I look back at him and couldn't help but return the smile of his cuteness and place a passionate kiss on his soft lips.

"Hey" I continue to smile. "Go back to sleep."

He nods with a grin and lays on my shoulder sweetly. As I rest my head on his, a single tear manages to fall down my face. I just want to know why this is so difficult and how the heck did it all get screwed up so quickly? Ya know?

Like, it all went from all of us carrying on by just being the best friends and then Jack gave the most amazing idea of the whole friends with benefits thing. From there, he intensified the situation by showing me his play room and showing me a whole world of sex I never knew was real. After that, Cam says he loves me and I falsely get involved with him! Then I fall in love with Jack, then I notice I was developing feelings for Cameron who was a guy who's only purpose I used him for was to do things with me that Jack and I's deal didn't include. That was probably where it all went wrong. I tried to juggle way too many things at the same time and here I am, collapsed. Finished. A complete head case.

I keep replaying the whole situations and decisions I've made over and over in my head, but every time I get to the part where I remember how Jack said he loved me, that's when another tear is shed. Till now, I still can't tell if he meant it. What I'm afraid of now is just that. What if I do find out he truly loves me? Now that... will be a disaster.

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Our plane has landed and we were now all settling in at our hotel rooms. Once Bart got the word that I'd be joining them all for the rest of the tour, he got me my own hotel rooms and plane tickets set up for all the stops. He even told me if I wanted to join the guys on stage some times and help out at the meet and greets, I could. I was nervous about that part though. I knew how the fans can be. Like Carter's girlfriend, Maggie (A.N: pretend that all is well between them haha, even though I hate him but I love her.) , she always gets hate for dating him and is often insulted when she comes on tour with them. Which she was coming to meet us at this stop actually. We've met before, just never really gotten a chance to really hang out one-on-one yet. I was actually nervous about that also. As I said before, I never was one of the girls to hang out with the girls. Hence, the guys being my best friends.

"Emma!" I hear one of the guys calling for me from the hallway.

I drop what I was doing, which was trying to unpack, and head out to the hall. When I come out, I see no one there but a little bit of giggles coming from the room next to mine, which was I think Matt's. I slowly step into the room and notice all of the guys sitting around looking at me.

"Um... guys? What's going on?" I say nervously, keeping my distance.

And not a second later, I'm blinded by a hand smashing whipped cream in my face. I gasp as I become speechless but can't help but to begin laughing. I'm not gonna lie, this smack cam thing that the guys do is a stress reliever since I'm always so serious lately.

"SMACK CAM!" Matthew yells as he comes close up to me with his camera being shoved in my face.

I wipe of the cream and still can't manage to do anything but laugh.

"Game on boys..." I smirk with attitude and slap Johnson right in the face since he was so conveniently standing against the wall beside me.

That's when about 8 cans of whipped cream pop out of no where and are being squirted on all of their hands. Cameron is the first to take a shot at Nash, then Nash does it back but nails him right on top of Cam's perfect hair instead of his face. I couldn't help but laugh my head off as it all progressed from there.

Now this, is what I'm used to. No drama. Just fun with my 9, nerdy, best friends. Hopefully tonight is the first baby step of things getting back to normal.