Fifty Shades of Friends (book 1) j.g.

Chapter 24- Wash Off The Shame

EMMA'S POV

As he intensifies the kiss by exploring my mouth with rough, but soft kisses, I giggle feeling his erection still against me but that doesn't stop him. He grabs my breast, never leaving my lips, palming me, making me moan once more into his mouth.

"WHAT THE F*CK IS GOING ON?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Cameron walks in screaming at us.

Oh sh*t....

"CAMERON! OH MY GOD! IT'S NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE!" I scream unable to say anything else, but it was obviously exactly what it looks like.

"Oh really? Let me get my glasses on so I can see you cheat on me in detail." He says sternly before storming out of the room, slamming the door behind him.

A tear escapes my eye as I look at Jack, looking like he felt extremely bad.

"Go talk to him." he places his hand on my shoulder.

I quickly scramble around the room for pajamas or anything really, and hurry to Cam's room. I knock frantically crying uncontrollably.

"Cameron please let me explain!" I yell through the door.

He opens the door, also in tears, not giving me the signal to come in.

"Do you realize how pathetic you sound right now?" he tries to control his tears but wasn't doing a very good job of it.

He was being so heartless but can I blame him?

"Jack and I have been up to way more than you think and it's much more complicated than you see it." I take a deep breath, trying to clear up my tears but they just continued to flood my cheeks. "Please just let me come in and explain it all."

He stops and take a deep breath, wiping a tear from falling down his cheek and steps aside. I walk in and wait for him to shut the door before I can begin talking.

"In the very beginning of summer, Jack and I had the idea of becoming friends with benefits-"

"So you don't feel anything for him?" he cuts me off.

"I didn't say that..." I look down at my feet, ashamed.

"You love him...." he resorts.

"Cam, that's not the point. Anyways, I found myself to begin feeling things for him which scared me so I got involved with you to see if you could just I guess... fulfill my romantic needs."

Wow that sounded way more harsh coming out of my mouth.

"SO YOU WERE JUST USING ME?!!!"

"I'm not gonna lie... at first. But I came to actually develop feelings for you. Anyways, Jack told me he loved me before he left for magcon so that's why I came. But when I arrived, I found out he slept with some other random girl on accident so I became furious with him. That's why I slept with you the other night."

"Not out of love?"

I bite my lip and the feeling of wanting to just run out of the room, grew.

"I don't know."

"Then I'm guessing my look of tonight that you forgave him..." He looks down at the ground, upset.

I let out a frustrated huff, holding my head in my hands as I sit on the edge of the bed trying to think of anything that could make this better but I just draw a blank.

"I never meant to hurt you." I whimper as I watch a tear fall to the carpeted floor.

"Hurting me was unintentional?! Emma, cheating is a f*cking deliberate thing! No one told you to cheat on me. No one told you not to tell me about things before I-"

"Before you what?"

"Before I fell for you.... Hard. Clearly, that was one of the most biggest mistakes I've ever made. Just get out." He says sternly unable to even look at me as he stood by the opened door.

"Cam-"

"GET OUT!" He yells, echoing himself through the hallway.

"What's going on?" Jack says standing in the door way.

I watch Cameron disgustedly roll his eyes when he see Jack and then when he sees me crying.

"Come on babe." Jack says coming up to me, placing his hand on my back, helping me up.

Without another word, Jack walks me out of the room and the door is slammed immediately behind us, making me jump.

I turn and cry into Jack's chest, probably getting make up on his shirt. I felt bad.

"Shhhh baby girl. Let's just get back to the room. Maybe try and sleep it off." He says in a soothing, comforting voice, stroking his fingers through my hair and places a kiss on the top of my head.

"He's never going to forgive me." I continue to cry.

"He'll come around. Just give him time."

I nod and sniff, trying to get it together. I leave his arms and walk to my room, Jack following me closely behind and shuts the door behind us.

I go into the bathroom and turn on the water. I needed a bath to calm myself. I began to undress, then put my hair up in a bun. Thankfully the bath tub was huge so I was able to wash off the shame I was feeling.

As I wait a little while longer for the water to fill, I look in the mirror and remove all the smeared, cried off, make up from under my eyes and on my cheeks. I end up just making it look weird so I decide to just take it all off. Jack or any of the guys never seen me with no make up on. It makes me embarrassed when I'm not wearing it.

My thoughts break when I get an idea.

I peak my head out of the bathroom door and see Jack laying on the bed, staring up at the ceiling probably contemplating what is next for us. Can't blame him. I don't even know yet.

"Jack?" My voice comes out soft and strained.

"Yeah?" He sits up to make eye contact with me.

"I don't want to be alone." I say shyly.

He grins at me with warmth and gentleness as he approaches me and embraces me, walking with me into the bathroom. He pulls his shirt over his head and then his pants then his boxers. He turns off the water for me and gets in the tub. I couldn't help but giggle to myself watching his nice butt flexing as he walked away from me.

"Stop looking at my a**." He laughs and sits in the tub, motioning for me to join him.

I drop my towel and sit in between his legs and slowly lower myself onto him. He gently grazes his fingers up and down my arms, giving me the chills but relaxing the hell out of me.

"I love you." he whispers in my ear. "...so much." he places a gentle kiss on my shoulder making me take a deep breath of peace.

"I love you too." I turn my head to crack a small, innocent smile at him. "...with all my heart." I kiss his jaw bone and lay my head back on his chest and rest my eyes shut.

As of right now, I'm pretty sure I made the right chance picking Jack over Cam. No matter how horrible you feel about loving someone else over another that you also happen to love, never be afraid to go with what your heart wants. In my case, my heart wanted Jack. Do I care for Cam? Yes. But the main question I had to ask myself was, who do I love desperately with all my heart and soul.... and well, you know the answer to that.