Love Sherlove..

MINE

Chapter 20

Paulit-ulit na nag rereplay sa utak ko yung sinabi ni Denver sakin..

Of course I want to see her happy.. but making her happy means leaving her..

hindi ako alam kung bakit, just thinking of leaving her makes my chest hurt.

I look at her peacefull face infront of me...

"can I leave you Sherlove?".. yeah.. can i?

"maybe it's the best for both of us right?".. you can find the man you want, while I can persue Quinn. It's a win win situation for us right?

But Damn it.. para akong tanga na kinukumbinsi ko ang sarili ko...

Lumabas ako ng room niya para mag pahingin saglit nung dumating sila Pink and Blue.

"your really impossible Sherlove"

"but I want to be happy too. And I know so do you." Bulong ko.

Royle POV

"galit nanaman si Sir—"

"ikaw na mag bigay sa kanya niyan.. mahal ko pa trabaho ko.'

"kahapo tatlo ang sinesante niya"

"talaga??—"

"good morning ladies"

"h-hello S-sir Royle" bati nila sakin habang nag bblush.

Ang gwapo ko talaga..

Pero anu naman yung sinasabi ng mga empleyado ni Troy? May topak nanaman kaya yun?

"anu yung sinasabi niyo about sa Boss niyo?"

Ayaw mag salita ng mga empleyado niya... tsk.. mukhang takot nga ang mga to. Napailing nalang ako.

Mukha ngang hindi maganda ang timplada ng gagung yon.

"don't worry.. hindi niya malalaman na nag sabi kayo sakin"

Nag tinginan muna silang lahat bago may isang sumagot.

"n-nung isang buwan pa po nag simulang mag ganyan si Sir Troy."

"lagi po mainit ang ulo niya.."

"sa katunayan nga po.. bawat araw may isa o dalawa na nasisisante niya"

Napagiwi ako nung narinig ko yun.. walangyang yan.. anu nanaman kayang espirito ang sumapi sa isang yun?

"sige girls salamat" sabi ko. Then I smiled at them.. may narinig akong medyo tumili..

Haha. Wala ehh gwapo talaga ako..

I rode the elevator papuntang office ni Troy..

I was about to open the door when I heared him shouting.

" your fired!" sigaw nito saka may lumabas na umiiyak na babae galing sa opisina niya.

Sinalubong ko yung empleyado niya.

"tahan na miss.. wag mo nang pansinin yun.. just go back to your station"

"pero sir sisante na daw po ako"

"no don't mind him may topak laang yun. Kust go back to your station. Ako ng bahala sa kanya"

"talaga po?"

"yup" I issured her then I smile.

Tumango lang ito saka umalis.

I opened the door and I saw Troy.. sitting on his swivel chair while holding a glass of scotch on his hand.

"whats with the morning drama?" bungad ko, saka umupo sa tapat ng mesa niya.

He gave me his famous deadly look.

"what are you doing here?"

"saving you from your idiocacy"

"and what do you mean by that huh?" galit na sagot niya.

"come on Troy.. its been a month since you started pushing her away and avoiding her"

"I have been doing that for years, whats new?"

Aba gago to ah!!... pilosopohin daw ba ko?

"new? Nothing.. your doing your best to avoid her after leaving her unconscious in that fucking hospital and when she woke up she is enviting death to claim her because she wants to see you, yet you are nowhere to be found everytime."

"and here you are.. biting your employes head off and been like a grumpy granpa in his office"

Kahit gaano ko man ikinatuwa nung nalaman kong iniiswasan ni Troy si Sherlove, coz somehow I thought that everything will be ok and she be able to move on from him. Pero hindi.. nung nagising siya. Wala siyang ibang hinanap kundi si Troy. And everyday na gigising siya si Troy parin ang hinahanap niya..

"this is for the best" sagot niya

"the best? For whom?"

"for you??.. for her???!! Damn it!!" hindi ko na napigilan na sumigaw sa kanya.

"I'm doing this for her!!" he shouted back.

"so your now the knight in shining armor?"

"damn you!!.. hindi pa ba sapat na nasasaktan siya everytime na kasama ka niya.. hindi pa ba sapat na pinapakita mong baliwala siya sayo everytime na lalapit siya? that you even have to avoid her like she've done something wrong again?"

"hindi mo alam kung gaano kahirap everytime na itatanong niya sakin kung bakit di mo siya dinadalaw.. I want to tell her that she should stop waiting for you because you don't care for her.. but I always end up saying that youre out of town doing some damn business.!!"

Hindi siya umiimik.. but him being silent irritate me more..

Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko kaya naman tumayo ako and hinatak ko ang kwelyo niya.

"if you don't like her.. tell her straight to her face.. be a man even for once!!" with that left him.

Troy POV

I was left staring at my office door when Royle left.. tinunga ko yung laman ng baso ko.. naramdaman ko ang pag hagod ng alak sa lalamunan ko.

Its been a month since I left that ICU and I never came back.. I never retun to check if she's ok or how is she doing.

When she woke up.. I have decided to avoid her. I tried my best to stay away as possible from her..

"hindi pa ba sapat na nasasaktan siya everytime na kasama ka niya.. hindi pa ba sapat na pinapakita mong baliwala siya sayo everytime na lalapit siya? That you even have to do this.. that you have to avoid her like she've done something wrong again?"

But I don't intend to hurt her.. I want her to be happy..

"be a man even for once!!"

But it means na kailangan kong panindigan na lalayuan ko nga siya.

"Hindi ka ba nakikinig kapag sinasabi kong mahal kita?' Sherlove

This is bullshit.. of course I'll always listening.. everytime na sinasabi niya na mahal niya ako. Pakiradam ko ang saya ko.. which is wrong because I cant believe her.. i cant love her.. I don't suppose to love her.

"ang hirap sayo, ang layo lagi ng tingin mo kaya hindi mo Makita yung mga taong handang talikuran ang lahat para maging masaya ka" Sherlove

Naisabunot ko nalang sa buhok ko ang kamay ko... I really don't know what do anymore.. I don't want to further hurt her but I cant stay away from her too..

"damn it Sherlove!!"

I pick my car keys and walk straight to the elevator..

"I hope I'm doing the right thing.." I want to settle things once and for all.