•|Truce|• (joshler)

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I just want to say sorry for how crappy this will be but I'm new to this so pls don't hate me😂

***i will put trigger warnings before parts that may affect some of you. but I just want to give you a heads up that the main topics of the first few chapters will be self harm/depression/suicide so if you are easily triggered I would recommend waiting until there's more chapters to this story and skip ahead a bit ****

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stay alive
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*** trigger warnings this whole chapter****

it was cold out tonight but tyler didn't mind, he needed to escape for a while.
he was sitting beneath a tree in a park near his house
"why am I like this" he muttered under his breath.
"i don't even know why im sad" he said bringing the sleeve of his hoodie to his face to wipe away the tears from his eyes.
"your sad because everyone hates you, your an annoyance to everyone." the voice in his head started again.
"please stop" tyler whispered the tears now rolling down his cheeks.
"it's true though, your a waste of life. no one would even care if you killed yourself."
"PLEASE STOP" tyler screamed hitting the side of his head with his palm to drown out the voices but they got louder and louder.
he pulled his knees into his chest and started rocking back and forth to calm himself down.

he stood up leaning against the tree and let his head roll back taking deep breaths while looking up at the sky focusing on the starts above him.
"god im so messed up" he breathed out a shaky breath.
he squeezed his eyes shut, his chest was still rapidly rising and falling and it was getting harder for him to breath.

"you're a waste of life"

"they all pity you"

"you could just kill yourself"

"everyone would be a lot happier if they didn't have to deal with you"

"STOP IT" tyler screamed again slowly sinking down on his knees. he began tracing the patterns of the tree trying to get his breathing back to normal. his fingers grazed long the bark and he noticed that someone had carved something into the tree.

he turned on the flash on his phone and pointed it at the tree. it was a number. he thought for a moment before putting the number into his phone and typing a message. he probably wouldn't even get a reply since it was 3am but he needed someone to talk to.

His shaky fingers typed out the message and he took a deep breath breath before hitting send

(The number is just a random bunch of numbers I don't know if it's the right amount or anything lolol)

To 004 391 6754:
"Don't let me be gone"

He nervously waited for a reply. "Their friends probably wrote the number as a joke, they're going to think I'm a weir-

his thoughts were interrupted by a beep from him phone.

From 004 391 6754 :Who is this?

you wouldn't want to bring another person into your life would you tyler? your a burden to everyone" the voice in his head started talking him out of it

To 004 391 6754: I need your help to take him out.

From: 004 391 6754: Take who out? tell me who this is so I can help you.

To 004 391 6754: I've got two faces, blurry's the one I'm not.

From 004 391 6754: Please tell me your name, I want to help.

To 004 391 6754: I'm a goner..

*incoming call from 004 391 6754*
tyler sobbed into his hands. this person wanted to help him but he would just leave like everyone else when they found out how messed up he is. and beside he doesn't want to bring his problems into anyone else's life.

he shut his eyes and sighed waiting for the call to end but the person kept calling and calling.

tyler eventually accepted the call and held the phone to his ear.

"Hello" the voice on the other end spoke"
it sounded like a boy around tylers age

"who is this, i started to get worried when you didn't answer"

"im sorry" tyler said and began sobbing "this was a mistake"

"wait!" the voice called sounding panicked "please tell me what's wrong"

tyler sighed trying to stop crying "sorry for bothering you" he apologised again, "you don't need this in your life"

tyler quickly ended the call and spent the next while sobbing into his hands before finally calming down and getting lost a few times trying to get home since he only moved here last week.

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laying in bed he couldn't stop thinking about the voice on the other side of the phone. he really wanted to hear that voice again but he couldn't. he can't. the boy seemed nice he doesn't deserve any problems.
"i don't want to be sad anymore" tyler whispered before slowly drifting off to sleep

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Poor lil bean :(

This chapter is really crappy sorry but I'm not really used to writing so hopefully it will better!

I'm not sure when the next update will be because I'm starting school in two days but I'll try not to make it too long I didn't have time to double check this so there's probably a lot of mistakes sorry :/