grenades; parkbomb

{chapter 23}

-Parker's POV- 

I rip myself off of Liam.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" I yell at him, backing away.

"If you would just let me fucking explain I will leave you alone!" he pleads.

"Fine, explain how you cheated on me." I say, looking directly at him, "And Mike," I say as he gets up and walks into the living room.

He sighs, "Okay, when I went to that hotel and ran into iris, I'm done lying to you, I thought she was beautiful." I feel the first pang in my chest. The first grenade.

"We exchanged phone numbers, and she saw that I was in Boston, and she texted me;" he says, pulling out his phone.

"I already saw them.." I remind him. My heart hurts as I remember the texts. Second grenade.

"Oh yeah, well I gave in to her and went to her hotel. We fucked, and I left. There was no love or connection! But, me being my stupid self, I gave in 2 more times, and it was so stupid of me to give into her." He says, his eyebrows turned upwards.

He really is sorry. 

But its not enough.

"I understand that youre sorry, but you dont understand the pain you are causing me. An "Im sorry" isnt enough." I say sternly, and walk out the room. 

I lock eyes with Mike, he quickly looks away. I sit on the couch next to Devon. 

And here is where the tears fall. 

"Hey, its going to be okay Parker" Devon says, pulling me into his chest. 

Everyone  gets up and sits next to Devon and I, hugging eachother.

Liam walks out, and everyone hits him with a death stare.

He sprints out the door.

-Liam's POV-

this may be triggering.

I walk out of the room to see everyones eyes on me. My legs spring and Im out the door in no time. I walk down the road, the cool wind brushing my hair out of my eyes and drying my tears. 

If I'm not enough for him, I'm not enough for anyone. Or anything.

I walk the city, looking for the perfect place. This part of Boston seems to be very flat, no cliffs.

My eyes scatter the tall buildings, picking a brick one, about 6 stories. That should be high enough.

I take the stairs to the roof, picking the lock with one of Iris's bobby pins that I earlier found in my pocket. 

As soon as I open the door, a gust of wind presses on me, almost knocking me back down the stairs.

I walk out, closing the door behind me, as the alarm goes off. 

Shit, I need to do this fast. 

I open my phone and dial Parker's phone number, I've began crying again. 

The phone rings twice and a voice that isnt Parker's picks up. Devon.

"Hello?" he asks, a flat voice.

"Please put me on speaker" 

"Parker if I'm not enough for you, I'm not enough for anyone. I should not of done anything with Iris and I am genuinely sorry, but that doesnt seem to be good enough. Probably because I'm not good enough." I say, "I am on the top of a building, and guards are coming so I need to do this quick, goodbye." I say, hearing the door open behind me. I run up to the edge of the building

I hear quiet screams from the phone, and jump.

For a second, I am flying.

Then I feel a pair of hands rip me backwards. 

I am thrown back onto the roof. 

"Why did you do that?!" I yell at the guard, my voice barley understandable. 

I get up and run again, this time successfully jumping off. The guard has the police on the phone, but its too late.

I'm floating, my stomach jumping.

I land, feelings sticks and leaves cradle me. 

A man in a paramedic's suit pulls me out of the large bush and puts me in a stretcher. I try so hard to resist, but hes too strong.

I see Parker sprinting down the street. 

No. 

I'm not good enough for you, get away!

The man has straps on me holding me down, I slide down so the top strap is on my neck and pull. Hard.

My vision begins to go black at the edges as my breath gets cut off. 

"No!" I hear Parker yell.

"I am not good enough!" I scream, my voice strained. 

I feel the pressure release and scream again, louder than ever.

"Stop it!" I plead, "let me die, I want to die." 

I'm hopeless.