Fantasy

Chapter 34

I shot up. I felt like I just woke up and talked to Hayes. My head was aching. And my body hurt so much. I looked at my phone and had millions of messages.

SHIT. It was 12:00. And today is Monday. Which obviously means, school. I started walking out of my room in pain. And I knew my period was coming.

I stumbled down the stairs. My mom was sitting at the table on her computer. Probably working.

"Morning sweetie" she said. I smiled at her and gave her a hug.

"Mom I'm late for school" I told her rushing around

"Sweetie. You don't have school. You do it virtually"

"Oh yeah" I replied. Letting a tear slip down my cheek. Forgetting certain things is a really emotionally draining.

I made breakfast and brought it upstairs. I decided today I was going to LA.  Today is the day. I'm going to stay with the boys at their house. And pay rent to them. They said that there is a bedroom for me, so I can just move in there :). And I asked my mom about it. We have talked about it for a while. She is totally down for it. As long as I visit all the time and that.

I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and then my mom entered the room

"Beth" she said looking out the door "matts here" she half smiled half waited for my reaction. I dropped my pile of clothes in shock. He walked through the door and my mom left. He shut the door and sat at my desk. I kept packing. Not making eye contact.

"Bethany" he started looking down at his feet frowning

"Matt. What are you doing here. I-" he cut me off

"Look. I am so sorry. That night. I was so drunk. In fact, I hardly remember it. It's really faint. But what I've done to myself and the guilt I've felt since it happened. It's slowly killing me. I am so so so sorry. I honestly am. And I can't do this anymore to myself. I need to talk to you. I need to get this out of my system" he let a tear roll down his cheek
"You are the most beautiful girl I've ever met. You have the sweetest personality. You are the strongest person I know. You have no fears and you are so amazing. I love you okay. I honestly love you. And I know you aren't with Hayes anymore. And I'm not trying to pick on your dead relationship. And I know it's really soon. But I love you. And from the moment I met you I knew I wanted to be with you. So please Bethany. Please forgive me. I am eternally sorry" he was fully crying now and I knew he meant it. I ran over to him and hugged him. He looked at me and I looked down at his lips. I kissed him really passionately and he kissed me back. His lips are so perfect. He pulled away and smiled, pushing my hair behind my ear.

"Let's take it slow okay" he mumbled biting his lip. I nodded and went back to packing. What am I doing? Is this right?

You know what. Fuck it. Hayes played with my feelings too many times. I can't live like that. I need a guy like Matt. I really like Matt. He's so handsome. He has a great personality too.

"So why are you packin" Matt asked curiously. He came over to the bed and helped me fold piles of clothes. But Matt hurt me. But I need him. What do I do.

"I'm going to LA tonight" I told him

"Do you wanna stay with me" he asked

"You bought a place?" I asked him excitedly

"Yeah! Its a three bedroom apartment. I know you probably would want to go to the boys place. But mines more quieter. And just chill" he said "I'm going there tonight. I already have it furnished and everything. I just came here to talk to you"

"Thank you Matt" I hugged him. He finished helping me pack and it went by so much quicker. I had three suitcases and a purse. We hulled them downstairs and put on 'The Proposal' which is a great movie.

We sat in silence. I put my hand on my forehead and shook off the pain. I could tell Matt was looking at me. I could see from the corner of my eye that he was frowning

"Are you okay" he asked putting his hand on my hand that was on my lap.

"Um yeah I think so" I replied. I got up and told him I was getting some Advil. He decided to leave for a bit, because he had to see Hayes. Which is perfect because now I can do my homework.

"Bye Matt" I smiled and hugged him. He left and I grabbed my computer. I turned on my Ed Sheeran playlist and put my phone down. I started my work and was dreading it already.

My mom left to go pick up stuff for work. And she also has this mini company thing that's called Arbonne. It is a cosmetic thing and it really works. It's awesome.

I finished my days work. Matt left at 2, it's now 7. So I got my hours in. And I finished a lot of work that I needed to do. I closed my computer and packed everything up in my backpack that I would be bringing. Matt is picking me up at 9'oclock. I plan to come back in two to three weeks for a visit with my mom and dad. My mom texted me and said that she was going to be out for a bit. Matt and I booked our flight together so we were leaving at the same time. I really like Matt. But I am fucking with my emotions if I move on that quick.

I called Shae and told her all about it. She said that I'm doing the right thing, but it is probably good for me to stay single for a Little. I agree.

I made sure I got everything packed. I went up to Maeve's room and smiled.

"Bye Maeve. I love you" I let a tear roll down my cheek. I closed the door as if she was still there. Even though I know she isn't.

"I miss you so much" I closed the door fully and went into my room. I took my clothes off and turned on the bath. I filled it so I could have a quick one. I had a towel wrapped around me and I went downstairs to get water. I ran into someone and dropped my towel screaming

"BETHANY CHILL" it was Matt

"MATT COVER YOUR EYES" I screamed at him as he stared at me. I grabbed my towel and put it back on.

"Holy fuck what was that" I asked him

"You left your door open. And I had no where to go. I heard the bath running, so I just figured I'd stay Down here" he smiled.

"What did you see? I asked him

"I just know that you have a really nice rack" he smirked. I punched his shoulder and laughed to myself

I grabbed my water and went upstairs.

"Hopefully I get to see more next time" he yelled from the top of the stairs. I turned around and glared at him.

"Fuck you" I laughed and kept waking

"Nice ass by the way" he yelled. I went into my bathroom and dropped my towel. I hopped in the bath and relaxed

What have I gotten myself into. So I still love Hayes. But Matt is so beautiful. He's such a beautiful human being. But Hayes is too. And.. I don't know. Hayes doesn't love me anymore. Or so I thought.

*ding ding*

From: Hayes

Bethany I messed up. I still love you. I'm sorry