The Trade

Say she in King of Diamonds Monday
Ain't scared to get that money
In back in church by Sunday
But we all know she's in love with that pole, pole, pole
She's in love with that pole, pole, pole
Ugh, say she in school Tuesday through Friday
Friday night that's my day
But Saturday through Sunday, she 'bout money
She ain't scared of that pole, pole, pole

To say these lyrics are life... I mean it, they are life.

 Railin.

"Did you get the medicine?" I asked my older sister as she walked into the house as I held Krei closely to my chest

 "Yes Rai, I got it, and the formula,pampers, and the fuckin' wipes" she said with an attitude

 "Ry, Im sorry , okay? If it was too much of me to ask you should've said something, I couldv'e went myself " I said looking down at my baby.

 Rylee looked at Krei as well

 "You know I couldn't say no Rai, it's like she's mine too and I hate seeing her sick ... I just had a rough day"

 "Wanna talk about it?" I asked as I started to warm a bottle.

 "Not really.. Imma go lay down until I gotta get Jojo from daycare. Call me if you need anything" 

 She kissed Krei's forehead and went down the hall to her room.

 "Just me and you Kay, just me and you"

 I stared at her admiring her beauty and then into her greenish/gray eyes that are just like her father's

(Flashback)

 I walked out of the doors of Corona High with my bestfriend Bryn when I saw him leaning on his freshly washed and detailed BMW talking to his friends

 "There go yo boo" she smiled as we headed towards him and his crew

 "That is not my boo, aint nobody thinking about that man" I said as we approached them and she walked into the arms of her FWB (Friend With Benefits) Trav

 "Thinking bout who? Ace? Girl who you trynna convince us or yoself?" Kenny said

 "Im not trynna convince nobody, I know Im not thinking about 'em" I blushed as I looked away

 "you gone come over here and not speak?" he said reaching for my arm

 "Hey Ace" I smiled as I hugged his torso

 "But that aint yo boo?" Bryn smiled

 "He's not!" I yelled and laughed at the same time

 "Yeah whatever, um, you coming with us Rai, we boutta hit the hookah bar?" she asked reffering to herself and Trav

 "Nawl, Imma take her home" Ace spoke for me

 "You dont gotta do that Ace.." I said shyly

 "But I want to ..." he said looking me in the eye.. damn those eyes

 "Alright Ace" I smiled

 It aint no secret that ever since senior year started I've been feeling Ace, and he's been feeling me. The only downfall to all of this is that he sells drugs, and Im known as a good girl.

 6'3,light skin, with all those tattoo's, curly hair, and that perfect smile.Gawd.Aint it true that all good girls wanna bad boy? Gotta be cause Im living proof of that shit ,I can't get enough of him. Being in his presence makes me want to melt into his arms. We aint together, but we might as well be

 We rode down Main toward his house listening to his Lil Wayne  CD

 "You hungry?"

 " No, not really"

 "Alright" he said pulling into his driveway

 This isn't my first time here, and from the looks of it ,it wont be my last. The last time I was here I was deflowered,which was a month ago and ever since then I've been craving it... but he was out of town

 As soon as I stepped inside I slipped outta my retro 3 88's and jumped on him, my small frame fitting perfectly into his toned arms

 "Oh now you aint shy" he chuckled as I kissed his neck

 I pulled away and smiled

 "I missed you so much " I said as I pecked his lips

 "I missed you too ma" he said as he started towards his room

 "When you gone tell Bryn about us?" he asked as he kissed my cheek

 "When the time is right.. it seems like yo crew already know" I said plopping down on his bed

 We exchanged smirks before he started to take off his pants revealing his basketball shorts

 "Rylee aint gone be hot about you getting being over here?"

 "Boy no, I am grown, Rylee dont run shit but her mouth, she need to quit worrying about me, and worry about Jovaughn"

 "Is that right?" he pulled me closer to the edge of the bed where he sat

 "Thats right... and plus I got important things to do over here..."

 "Like what?" he licked his lips

 I straddled his lap, pulled his shirt off and started on his neck again

 "You" I whispered on his lips

 (flashback ended)

 That was the day my Krei was created, and I dont regret it at all.

 When I graduated a couple months later , I was 17 years old and 9 weeks pregnant.

 I told Rylee as soon as I found out, of course she was upset, but also understanding, she herself was a teen mom, she had my 5 year old nephew, Jojo, when she was 16. 

 I'm sure if mama was still alive she would've killed me. Being her baby of 7 , she wanted the best for all of us, but knowing I was pregnant would've killed her before the cancer could

 Rain Lena Amos, had 7 kids,. 5 boys , 2 girls. There's  Rico Lanton and Reed Lyden, twins :28. Rance Laken, 26. Rais Lan,25. Rhett Lionel,23. Those are the boys, then there's Rylee Laine , 21, and me Railin Leise 18.

 She was the strongest woman I knew. Never dependent on a man, and made sure all her kids were happy. Our father left when I was only 8 days, and never came back, nor did Mama show she was hurting from it, we still had what we needed.

 Mama died 4 years ago a couple weeks before Jojo's first birthday, of Pancreatic Cancer stage 5. That had to be the saddest day of our lives, even though we knew she wasn't gong to make it, we all took it hard.

 And when I became a mother, I  knew, I knew what she felt like trying to do it alone. Except she had to do it with 7.

 Ace skipped town a couple days before Krei was born. I wasn't as livid as I thought I would be because I saw it coming, once I started to show, he came around less and less.I guess he was just too 'hot' for a baby. But his mom, Ms. Laura has always been there for me, she even offered to keep Krei when I started school, which came in handy.

 Everybody still looks at me like little innocent Railin, even with a baby out of wed lock, but what they don't know is that to keep my daughter happy, I had to fall in love with a cold silver pole...