The Trade

Because I Care

Tuesday.

"So how you been? we haven't talked in a while.." Jaxon said typing on his ipad

I decided after class to talk to him, because right now I don't know who else to go to who wouldn't judge me, that's even if I decide to tell him what's going on, cause Im still unsure

"Im livin'" I laughed

"I see... you gotta whole new attitude about yourself. How's Rod?" he smiled

"Um, Rod and I aren't together anymore... we broke up about 3 months ago" I said kind of sadly.

"Damn, that's too bad. I really liked y'all together. How's Rance feeling ?" he asked shaking his head

"He's better now. He asked about you yesterday , he told me to tell you to call him" I said playing with the zipper on my purse

Jaxon looked up at me and took off his glasses

"What's wrong Rai?" he asked sympathetically

I hesistated to answer

"Nothing.. Im just stressed out. Have you talked to Jason?"

I don't care how he's doing honestly, just making conversation.

"No, after he told me he saw you at Jojo's school he went ghost. Can I ask you something?"

"Sure"  I shrugged

"Who's Ecstasy? I've been wanting to ask you that for a long time, I just didn't know how"

I knew sooner or later I'd have to tell somebody

"Ecstasy is my stage name at Tops and Bottoms. " I said looking in his eye " And I have a feeling your about to judge me, so I'll leave"

I stood and left and walked to the subway around the corner before having to go get Krei from Laura.

"Hey Rai" Blythe sai cheerfully

Blythe is Bryn's little sister. She was always a bitch, and she know I don't like her so I have no idea why she talking to me especially after what happened with her sister and my then boyfriend

"Girl, don't speak to me you know I don't like you" I said looking at the menu

"You done changed " she laughed "what kind of bread?" she asked

"Stop talking to me and make my sub.. umm flatbread" I said as I looked down at the bread selection

"Kind of meat?"

"No meat, no cheese. Just let me get some bell peppers,lettuce,black olive, cucumber, sweet onion sauce, vinegrette dressing and black pepper" I said what I wanted as I watched her make my sandwhich

"Is that all?" she asked with a attitude

I smiled

"No that's all"

"3:65"

I handed her a 20 and grabbed my bag

"Keep the change bitch" I laughed as I turned to walk away

I was walking back to my car when I saw Rod going to his car on the phone. I was trying so hard not to catch his attention, I accidently bumped into him

"Im sorry" I said bending down to pick up his bag. I handed in back to him and looked at his face, he looked like he hadn't slept in days

I know Im not supposed to care right now, but I couldn't help but ask

"How are you? you look tired"

"Im fine" he said coldly

"oh...kay then" I said walking away, but he grabbed my arm