What we could've been

A new beginning and good bye to him

There I stood looking out into the ocean. seeing the small waves make there way onto the shore , feeling the sand between my toes. I closed my eyes as I remembered that this is where it all started. This is where I gave my heart and soul to him, this is where all my illusions of the perfect love started. I was completely wrong. I opened my eyes to see the sun rising and shinning on the ocean. the colors of orange and yellow sparked along the waves and I knew this meant a new start. I needed a new start a life were I felt at peace, where the past didn't haunt my dream. It was time for me to say goodbye and end it where it all stared . Tears ran down my cheeks. This is harder then I expected it to be . Then I felt the movement inside of me. It always happens when I cry. I wrapped my arms around my belly and said " I promise you there will be no more tears, you wont feel my sadness any more. you will only feel happiness when your with me. its time for both of us to say goodbye to him". I moved my hands to the back of my neck to unhook the locket that was around my neck. It was engraved with our Initials. With a picture of us at are happiest point. It was given to me before all this happened I swore never to take it off but I have to. I griped it hard against my palm as I remembered all the I love you's that were said, promises that were made that ended up being broken . This was the last thing that connected me to him besides the human being that was now inside of me. I looked down at the locket as a I singed " the scares of your love remind me of us. they keep me thinking that we almost had it all. the scars of your love they leave me breathless , I cant help feeling. we could have had it all..." I placed the locket on my belly as the movement happened again, I knew that meant she was saying good bye. I slowly raised the locket as I said "good bye first crush, first date, first kiss, first love goodbye Lucas." I throw the locket into the ocean with every strength that was in my body. I watched it as it slowly sunk down to the depths of the ocean with it taking every once of disappointment and pain with it. I looked at the sun rising high as I wrapped my arms around my belly and whispered " its a new beginning now , there will only be happiness now" And with that I made my way home leaving my past behind.