What we could've been

Will it be okay?

           

Lucas pov

"Why are you here?"

"Can't I visit a friend?" Lucas says as he takes a sit on the couch turning to see the view outside of the window

"We were never friends" she says snapping him out of his gaze

Lucas chuckles as he looks up at her "still the same cold heart b-"

"Finish that sentence and I promise you, you won't see the end of it" she hiss as she glares at him taking a seat in front of him

Lucas smirks as he hold up his hand "chill I'm just joking, still don't know how to take jokes?"

"Why are you here" she says with annoyance crossing her arms across her chest 

"I need it again" Lucas says leaning back looking out the window remembering those years when he didn't know if he would of survived..

"You don't need it" she says shaking her head

"Yes I do, it's simple as that" he says looking up at her

"Why? I thought you know longer needed it? You said it your safe cowboy, you could handle anything" She says studying him

"I need to be better for my Riley and my daughter. I found them and I  need to be good. I can't let that part of me out again.." Lucas says looking down

"You can't change what happened years ago, you know that don't you?" She says looking at him

"I can try!" he says in a harsh voice as he stand to walk to the window

"You can't be serious Lucas? What part in that awfully small brain of yours, does that sound like a great idea?" she hisses 

"The part in which it tell me, that riley knowing the truth makes her hate me even more than she does. It's the part of me that tells me that I rather be seen as some asshole" he hiss glaring at her

"When has a secret ever been good? Huh? Answer me? You remember what having secrets meant? It meant breaking us apart." she says as she grabs him to look at her

"Drop it!" he shouts making her stumble back

"Listen here Lucas, Riley isn't that 17 year old you left 5 years ago. She's a women now with a daughter and a life. Stop protecting her. You can yell, all you want at me and pretend you don't have a problem, because you don't scare me. Grow the hell up!" she screams at him wishing she could get through his thick skull

"She can't know, and that s it! I promised myself and I promise him that I wouldn't say anything" Lucas breathes as he goes to sit down.

"Grow a ball and speak up! You don't need meds or counseling anymore Lucas, you knew how to handle it all along " she sighs sitting down

"you still so blunt huh" he says lightly laughing hoping to lighten the tension

"I've know you for so long and I've help you through this, you're not the same guy Lucas. So I'm not going to help you" she say standing up and heading to the door

"Why not you're the only one that can help" he sighs making he's way to the door

"You know dam right I'm not. There's someone else you need to see." She says motion him out

"I can't" Lucas whisper

"Man the hell up and go see him, you want help go ask him" she signs looking at him

"You're still cold hearted" he says smiling at her

"And you still love it, " she smiles as they hug.

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"It's been years but I can always tell when someone is waiting to come in"

"May I come in?" Lucas sighs as he hastily stands outside the room, one foot inside while the other out ready to run away from the one person he's frighten by the most

"Is this  a relatable topic" the man says not once turning to knowledge him

"Yes it is" Lucas says as he plays with the hems of his shirt, chills running through his body

"Very well then, come in" the man says waving him in

Lucas walks inside slowly as he takes a looks around the old room, it's just like he remembers from years ago. He slowly walks to he's old seat, running his hands against the desk and smiling when he noticing the small carving he made years ago.  He looks up and for a split second he was transported back to the good old days. When the pretty brunette would sit up front and look back at him.

"Permission to talk sir" Lucas gulps as the memories fades and he's reminded why he's here

"What brings you here?" he ask not once looking up from he's work

"History" Lucas says as he's fingers run over the carving of L+R

"History? Well that's dates and number and that's all is" the man says as he's voice becomes harsher

"We both know it's not.." Lucas sighs as he gets up and approaches the desk

"Well I say it stays that way" the man hisses as he finally look at Lucas with a glare

"I need to-"

"You don't need anything mister friar." He says cutting him off

"I need to break my promise Mr. Matthews" Lucas says raising he's voice as he becomes engaged  in a stare down between the father of the women he still loves and the mentor he still admires

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Riley's pov

"Mommy" the little girl says as she crawls into her mother's lap

"Yes sweetie?" riley says as she plays with her daughters hair

"Will everything be okay" Hope says as she rests her head against riley chest

Riley sighs as she shuts her eyes holding her daughter closer to her and places a kiss on her head " It will baby, I promise you that I will do my very best to make everything okay"

"Nothing bad will happen, right mommy" Hope says looking up at her mom

"Right baby" Riley say as she hugging her daughter again and trying to ignore the huge discomfort that laid deep in her core. She couldn't shake off the feeling that the storm was nowhere near over.

Hello again! how long as it been? I apologize for how horrible i am at updating. I hope you all enjoy this chapter. :)

Please let me know if you still read the story, and thank you to those of you that have add the story and still read it. means so much to me :)

I know today is a weird day we have a new president, I respect all opinions ( not hate plz) but i know its a very weird day to think of a person like this in office but as rowan as said and many others have said lets not lose hope.

Also its girl meets world series finally and I can't handle it... i can't see it live since i don't have cable access :( so anyone that does please please watch! let's have them get a boom ass ratings. Also get those petitions coming not just for Netflix but Hulu and even the ABC network, lets not let it die. I need more of this show in my life :)

As always be safe and see you later loves! :)