What we could've been

Just for now

My heart break as I watch Charlie make his way upstairs. The confusion and hurt on his face. I shut my eyes as the tears roll down change is happening why why.

"Riley.."

I turn to see Lucas looking at me with pleading eyes. I have angry but pain for him. I turn to look at my dad as he gives me a reassuring smile

"Go honey. You need this, let it go" he says as he motions for us to go outside

We make it outside as the silence takes over us. We stand there looking at each other. Neither of us knowing what to say. The pain we both have and the change we face.

He turns as he begins to speak "why didn't you tell me?"

"I told you everything you needed to know" I says trying to control my emotions

"I needed to know about my daughter! Why didn't you at least tell  me her name!? How she was!?" He yells as he turns to face me

Angry boils in me as he words hit me
"maybe because you left her 5 years ago! Maybe because you come back out of nowhere! Maybe because you don't deserve to know!" I yell as I felt my heart ache

"I spent almost two months with her! She calls me uncle! Do you know how much that hurts now! Riley she's my daughter! Riley we created her! She's  both of ours "he yells as I see the tears roll down his face

" then why didn't you stay! Why did you leave both of us! Lucas you left both of us! She didn't have you in her life!" I yell as I get closer to him

"So you decided to get her a new dad!? What is wrong with you!" He yells as He points to the house

" don't you dare put this on me! Don't you dare try to make it as if I did this! This is all your fault! I  called you! Everyone called you the day she was born! I even called you one her first birthday! You! Lucas did this! You!"  I sob as I push him and hit his chest the tears rolling down my face as my body weakness

He takes a hold of both my wrist " Riley I'm sooo sorry for what I did! I was 18! I was scared and Texas gave me an out! You have no idea how much I hated myself! I couldn't come back because I was ashamed! Riley every dam day I hurt! I couldn't  face you or her but now.. Now we can fix it"

"Lucas.. It's not easy.. I can't just tell her who you are" I say as I look at him

"Riley.. Please..." He says as he rest his forehead head on mine holding my face in his hand

"Lucas." I whisper as I look into his eyes. Those eyes that will forever make my heart beat

"I'm her dad Riley. Let me be her dad" he says as his voice cracks

"She thinks Charlie is her dad." I whisper

He lets go of me as he turns away and runs his hands through his hair

"But his not! I don't care how much of a friend he is. He is not her dad I am. I am Hope's father she has my blood she's part of me!" He sobs pointing to himself

"Don't you think I know that! Every day I see her she reminds me of you! Her eyes, the shape of her face the little things she does and the way she acts. She's strong like you but gentle." I yell as I make him look at me

"Then let us be a family!" He say as he takes a hold of my waist

"That can't happen" I say as I look away from him. I can't face him if I do I'll lose my self control