What we could've been

I'm your Dad

I get home as I make my way to my window.  I sit looking out as I pull out my wallet. I smile as I pull out her picture. She was even more beautiful pregnant she had a glow to her.

"I hope you and little Riley are okay.  I Hope you guys are save and happy. I know it's been a year but I'll be with you two soon. I promise Riley" I say as I kiss her picture

I hear my computer ding. I quickly go to it as I see Zays name pop up.

"Maybe this will make you come back" the message reads  as A picture was attached. I quickly open it as my mouth fell open . It was a picture of Riley and the baby.. Our baby... I couldn't really see her face since she was covered with a pink blanket. Her head laying on Riley's shoulder with Riley giggling

I felt my eyes water as I press my fingers on the screen as a smile forms on my face.

"I miss you so much" I say as I feel a tear run down my cheek

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I play with my hands as I stare at the clock it's 12. There not coming... I shake the thought away  no Lucas your going to wait as long as you have to for her. I rest my head on the table as I try to control my feels

"Hi"

I raise my head up to see Riley with Hope. I smile as I stand looking at them

"Hi" I say smiling

"Mommy can I talk alone " Hope says as she walks from behind Riley

Riley looks at me I smile as I nod my head

"If you need anything I will be outside okay" she says as she places a kiss on Hope's  head

"Just be honest with her" she whispers as she gets close to me before walking away

I stand there with hope looking down shifting  her weight between her feet. I chuckle as I see her

"Why are you laughing" she says glaring at me

"You're  nervous, I shift my feet to when I'm nervous" I say as I smile

She quickly looks down as she goes to sit in the booth. We sit there in silence as I try to collet what to say to her. How to explain my side! How do I explain what I went there this years

"Why don't I remember you"

"What" I say as I focus on her

"Why don't I remember you? If your the... Cowboy then why don't I remember you" she says looking a me

"What do you mean" I say as I rest my hands on the table

"The princess and the Cowboys knew about the baby. If you knew and saw the baby then why don't I remember you? Why do I remember daddy?" Hope says

I close my eyes as I let her words sink in
"You don't remember me because... I never saw you"

Hope sits back as she looks at the table with her eyes wondering

"But... But you knew about the baby? I don't get it" she says looking at me

I close my eyes "I left before"

"Before what" she says as her eyes wonder

I hand my head low as I breathe "before you were born"

I look up to see her mouth falls slightly  as her eyes water

"You..you left without seeing me..." she says looking down

I nod as I cover my face with my hands beginning to feel the tears forming.

"You didn't want the baby..." She says as I see her lip tremble

I stand as I move to sit with her. She try's to scoot away but I grab her

"Hope me leaving had nothing to do with you.." I say as I run my hand through her hair but she quickly moved away

"But.. In the story the cowboy was happy, for the baby? I don't get it?" She says shaking her head

"I was sooo happy to know about you! Knowing that a little person was going to be a part of me. Hope look at me" I say as I grab her chin making her face me

I could see the tears in her eyes "you left me..why didn't you come back

" I Couldn't Hope... I was scared..." I say as I felt the tear run down my cheek

"The princess was scared to! And mommy didn't leave!" She yells as she turns away from me

"I know.. I know Hope and I'm sooo sorry I left. I was scared of not being enough for you two. I was scared of not being able to support you two" I say looking down

"You hurt mommy.." She says crying

"I know... I did but Hope I'm back! I'm here to fix it! Let me fix it please" I say as I look at her

"You're  uncle and daddy is daddy and mommy is mommy and that's it. I don't like the new story it hurts my head" she crys as she holds her head looking down

"Hope I'm you're dad... I'm not your uncle. Your my daughter and I love you.. I'm so sorry I left" i sob as I take her hand in mine

"No!... No... I don't what to do... I want mommy I want mommy!" She yells as she crys

I wrap my arms around her as I rock us back and fourth. I can feel her pushing away from me but I keep my hold on her.

"Shhh.. It's okay Hope. I know your confused and I know you hate me. But I love you and I might now have been there but I promise you I never forgot about you... I'm so sorry" I cry as i place a kiss on her head.

I hear her sniffles as her body relaxes. She lays her head on my chest

"What now" she says looking up at me

"We finish the story.. This time I'm not leaving you or you're mother" I smile as I wipe the tears from her eyes

Hello! New chapter! Sorry it's not good and a shot chapter. I had an idea and wrote it out but it just wasn't working. So anyways I hope you guys like it!

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